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Sunday, April 25, 2010 / 22:48
 idk whats come over me.:x yes people, i know ive changed a lot. i knew the reason for my change too :/ i guess a lot of ppl are just starting to dislike lijuan. just like ____. :( friends culd once be very very close. but they now could be strangers. wrong people make me :D worng people make me :( its kinda confusing. im sick and tired of the fact that its a daily routine whereby i go school, see you and her and get siann diao, aftr sch heard this and that, return home then have an emo night. or otherwise some weird incidents and weird emotions just swept over me. somehow i feel im just preventing myself from falling into other traps. whereby i will fall deeper and deeper. idk.:x im hoping that my dear huineng will be alright:D dont worry theres me k! maybe i will join u soon:/ sorry suemae. sorry juanjun. sorry cupid. ohdear. tmr's start of routine again. sometimes i'd wish to be alone. sometimes i wish. i really wish i could disappear. by talking to and relying on you, im trying to make myself more miserable aftr going back to the fact that you arent here? im lost. brokenhearted.
Thursday, April 22, 2010 / 19:03
its over i guess.idk how many times it has shattered. countless i guess. i shall not do anything anymore. even blind can see that you like her alot. defeated.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010 / 23:22
a little fucked off everyday.wasnt in good mood. unless im doing things that i like:D like bballing sballing. ususally, the nights suck. how do i tell you that; maybe a little more attention will do. iver tried for very long. everything that i could do. bt the fact just remains there and we both knew that it wuld be impossible. and how do i tell u that everytime when i see you and her. my heart wuld ache. how do i tell you that even the minorest thing related, i will also be affected. i guess you knw me; but i dontknw you. everything's spinning around me right now. idk what to say, idk what to do. sometimes i wuld rather. end. maybe its just me. school is a place of tears and i wouldnt even wana visit it. :( thankyou juanjun. 我知道故事不会太曲折 我总会遇见一个什么人 陪我过没有了她的人生 成家立业之类的等等 她做了她觉得对的选择 我只好祝福她真的对了 爱不到我最想要爱的人 谁还能要我怎样呢 我爱的人不是我的爱人 她心里每一寸都属于另一个人 她真幸福幸福得真残忍 让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深 我爱的人她已有了爱人 从他们的眼神说明了我不可能 每当听见她或他说"我们" 就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声 argh.
Thursday, April 15, 2010 / 23:18
haven been blogging for long.1. lazy to update 2. tired. 3. its dead anyway. HELLO PEOPLE? anyone here? haha. i realise i like thurs and fri:D yayae tmr interclass! (: haha. but i alrdy know. something would be there to sadden me. oh well. ; GO 402! :D jiayous! (: im bored. JIAYOUS JUNIORS yayae softball both div top4. bdiv champs! :D cdiv- tentative. tired. i wana give up. but it hurts. 0101
Saturday, April 10, 2010 / 00:58
its 01:01am in the morningim still online. (: goonna sleep soon:x eyes cmi le ahhaaha jiao.
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haven really been posting.blog and tagboard all dead le anw. im currently fucked up with jiao ppl. idk whats wrong with them la seriously. i know its fun to jiao ppl but do they think of other ppl feelings like seriously. :( screw all of you man. everything that seems to be mine always end up being hers ohwell, i get it. i aint significant. she is. and the thing is. my fav thing gt jiaoed too. it totally made me :( its like making me hate the thing la whatever shit. liking you have been screwing up my life. it suck so im gonna put an end to everything. n its not like i didnt take acre of my phone and let others see others smses. argh. __________ the whole just fuck off yeah. yayae its 0032 in the morning i love msn. :D at least theres still ppl whom i talk to and will make me :D :(
Tuesday, April 06, 2010 / 19:09
Idk what I want:(Everytime I feel likethis I would often ask myself if I've made the wrong choice And the thing is idk:( Idk hw these could hurt, But they do hurt. :/ Ahhh this is so fucking irritating:( RARRRRRRRRRRR. I don't wana be one of the thirteen, Somemore uve got another sister. What to think. What to do. Maybe uve alrdy don't care abt it, So I guess There's nth I could do Maybe, It could be right. Or wrong? If liking u is wrong, Maybe I wuld continue to be wrong :x I want to talk to you But idk how. blackberry!
Saturday, April 03, 2010 / 00:19
Oh hello people! HahaSolong nvr update blog le. Tsk I'm lazy ma haha Yayae I've got a blackberry:) Muchmuch btr than my nokia5800 hehe Tmr's got some outing. Hope we all will enjoy it:D Iknow, I mean nothing to you. :( |
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