ilikeyou.

you wouldnt know.

what hurts the most, was the undesired truth.

PIKAJUANTONPITER.

loves you.

our own world;

(:lijuan! (:stories (:friends (:chatroom (:herpast.

HELLO:D

emo friday.

Friday, March 26, 2010 / 23:20

school was ._. today.
3 periods of el.
i spend my time doing.
card?
then health screen.
was so fcked up:x
missed recess by ALOT.
bballed like 5mins.
geography.
maths.
lunch bballed.
damn hiong.
and today was my violent day :/
lol.
aftr sch went trn.
then.
sec4s only got lijuan nett huineng?!
._.
did pt with them too:x
LOL so suay la, thought could bat and do fielding.
went off at 4++ for bball interclass with huineng HAHHAHAA.
watched matches, played bball.
till around 7+ 8
centralled homed.

me is damn tired.
bball aftr interclass was fun:D
everyone was so high and used too much energy HAHAHA.
alicia wanqing suemae lijuan vivien agnes!
guys uh.
idk.

tmr haha
ANYONE BBALING BEFORE THE MOCK PAPER?
(:
meeting cindy juanjun penghwee at 650.
:x
notime to slp :(
LOL.

shld have a heart to heart talk with vivien someday.:D

sorry,
i didnt want to hurt u.
:/

even if friends knew.
there still isnt any solution:(
so hard meh.
:x

trust me,
i know a lot.
i couldnt say, cause i cant betray.
and i wonder if things are repeating again.
even if it doesnt
the fact that.
_______.
will still bother me:(
feel like just.
forget it and end off everything.
but i couldnt let go:(
you baddie.
tell me how. :(

theres a voice telling me.
follow your heart.
oh shit
isnt that my own line.
:X

decision will be clear aftr tmr
i guess.

when love turns into hatred;

the 1000th- heartwrecking.

Thursday, March 25, 2010 / 19:20

recently i didnt post.
notime post, or rather no mood to post.
many things revolving around the same thing happened lots of times.
till i really start to break down a lot.

i feel very sorry to one person.
but, im just telling truth.
i dont want to be like some other ppl.
but im most probably feeling the same way as you are now. :(
anw, certain stuff,
its not when you tired very hard and put in alot of effort,
you will get it de.

:(
im really sad of a lot of things.
lies.
empty promises.
and such.
i guess its alrdy the 6th time.
but still like that.
and idk why,
i just forgive you in the end as well.
:(
but ive the fear.
fear of being your friend once again.
fear of getting hurt.
fear of liking you deeper.
tell me how?

if you cant reutrn yours back,
might as well.
cut.
:x

at a particular __________.
i just felt everyone neglected my feelings.
or its just they dontknw.
i nt sure, but i couldnt do anything
but just hear and watch helplessly.
with the heart bleeding.

EMOEMOEMO.
sorry ppl around me.
such as.
cindy yiliang weisiang huineng suemae gladys agnes vivien
and esp JUANJUN.
i dont meant to emo.
i dont want to too,
but i just realised
from monday till nw,
all like that:(
i will try to be better. :D

i dont like going home,
where the smiles will be fading away. :(

it sucks.
to be all alone.
in the middle of the night.
shouted for help,
search for help,
but noone was there.
:(

im sure im flunking tests.
didnt do anything at all, not even studying.
:x
hey holiday hmk and those chi hmk which were dued 2months ago
im sorry i neglected u all
:x

this post is so unorganised.
i just typed whatever that came to my mind.

i really like you a lot,
idk hw to say but i guess its the end.
what hurts the most wasnt just the efforts,
but was the way i treat u and how u treated me.
idk if its my stupidity r what,
to trust once again and again.
i really wonder, what have i done wrong:(
maybe its just me, so u choose to lie.
:(
idk.

even if he or she likes you,
you shldnt just toy around with their feelings.
be straightforward and just settle it asap.
:x

i guess i gona hibernate for a while?
idk. ;x
i really wish i wuld get into some accidents and have my memories deleted.
(:

i believe,
one day i will learn how to command my tears to stop flowing.

all the best to you and her.
:D
since you dont even know if you got chance or not.
but i guess you like her a lot.
not just a bit.

999.

Thursday, March 18, 2010 / 23:02

the last post before 1000.
cool. :)

haven really been blogging, cause the blogger is just too lazy
AHAHAHA.
met cindy huineng nett today and bussed 157 to RJC.
some random person opned gate for us and we slipped in
some nice rj girl lead us the way to field
in the end
we ended up in rjc track field.
liike noone de:O
realised we're supposed to be at RI.
ask around for RI field
then they told us raffles got 3 fields.
wow.
imagine we can get lost in raffles.
which is a small part of sg
and sg is small part of the earth
earth is small part of universe.
HAHAH SO FUNNY!
found our way to RI.
cool la
and theres this cute usher HAHAHAHHAA.
their field is damn BIG and nice and OMG.
trialed.
13 ppl tgt.
cresent, nanhua, newtown.
:D
SO FUNNNNNNNN.
like we're alrdy trn as a team.
ended at 1. four hrs.
tired:x

rushed to je, met agnes who hopped on at woodlands.
lunched at imm.
libraried.
SO FUN:D
hahaha.
yayae love agnes and cindy(:
PAPERCLIPS! :D
studied till 9 hahahha.

maybe a change isnt a bad thing,
aftrall.

3days of fun! :D

Monday, March 15, 2010 / 20:26

SUNRISE:D:D:D

juanjun & aaron.

failed photo ahhaa.

agnes lijuan :D

lijuan agnes:D

lijuan:D

poor penghwee was cut off and kahhang wasnt in HAHHA.

saturday.
woke up at 6 :O
SRC.
played with sas.
quite fun:D like solong aftr nationals.
finally. :D
then rushed to meet agnes at je.
mrted to bedok, took bus to eastcoast.
haha almost got lost.
till we heard juanjun's epic voice then realised they were playing soccer on beach. hahaa.
and its damn funny la lol.
the goalposts.
bbqed.
me agnes junwei hongyu shuanhock did the most job i guess.
but quite fun le hehe. :D
cleaned up and cleaned room.
203 guys are so organised.
me and agnes :O
lol.
sinzhi weiyuan tiefeng lydia szehwee gina went back:O
then left those staying over:/
lijuan agnes juanjun hongyu shuanhock mingze junwei aaron kahhang penghwee xuanhao.
guys went cycling,
me agnes stayed to bathe chat and sorry i fell asleep:x
super freezing cold.
achoo.
guys came back at 3am. siao.
supposingly 1.
lol.
played cards and the guys slept.
juanjun played marshmallows hahaha.
IT WAS OMG FUNNY.
then me agnes him slipped out.
he tried to taught agnes biking. hahah
failed.
it was like 4+ 5am.
then went back,
woke aaron up.
went to watch sunrise:D:D:D
DMAN OMG NICE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
first time see sunrise:D
crapped with jj aaron agnes haha.
so fun ran here and there played too.
guys went return bike, left lijuan agnes junwei.
lijuan crapped till fell asleep lol.
mac breakfast.
went suntanning. lol
then took buses to junwei house.
ahahha
all slept on the bus
SO CUTE LA!! :D
raining too, froze.
ran in rain.
watched some damn horny movie. LOL.
so wth funny la.
went home at 6plus.
hehe chalet was so fun
miss 203 really alot. :X

went studying with suemae cindy clarice agnes today
DAMN FUN HAHAHA
bballed with suemae agnes some random guys and girls.
:D
yaya clarice we own today:D
hey,
im cornea.
LOL.

tmr's phys remedial workshop bball. :D
but i hope some assholes wont ruin my mood tmr.

wed's workshop trn study/hospital.
:D
or bball.

thurs.
heard frm cindy the rj teacher asked me go too.
shld i? :x
but i want whole sec4s go tgt leh.
dont wana play against each other in jcs:/
huineng nett cindy cheryl!
all of u going right.
hmm.

fri SRC.
sat SRC.
sun SRC.
holiday over.
WOAH. ~

:(
可能你从来没感觉到最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药

:(
hidden in my deepest sorrows.
if only everything could rewind to the past,
when we first knew each other.
and crapped as always as we do.
:(

its basket the ball.

Thursday, March 11, 2010 / 21:27

im starting to miss softball a lot:X
somemore tmr trn cancelled:(
nehmind bball here i come whee:D

school was a little sian today:x
nothing much to be happy abt.
aftr sch stayed back with agnes.
played bball and watched bball.
HAHAH.
like the sec3s boys.
very funny and nice(:
yayae.
the basketball coach is damndamn cute:D
ppl should have seen it for themselves hahaha.
damn agnes kept playing with my mouseball! BLEH.
juniors came back.
played softball with ganes and them.
then.
went off at 7plus.
quie late:x
i kept thinking that today is friday. damn.

fri's lessons are the most =.=
=.=
-.-
ones.
argh.
just survive that few hours.
by making myself :D hehe.
reading chi novel. nice:D

holidays are coming, but its like booked. :(
wana watch movies.
anyone? :D

somethings arent meant to be said,
cause its oblivious.

its okay,
i shall just keep it at the bottom of my heart.
:x

my sky's dark,
its gona cry.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010 / 19:48

argh,
quite pissed at my nose now.
stop sneezing for godness's sake.

recently school was fun.
and i realise how long ive never play bball that crazy.
haha.
to me, school was just bball bball bball:D.
siao alrdy LOL.
the sec3s guys are very nice. hehe.
<3 bball gang
and the <3 softball bball gang
hahaa.
these two days have been walking and mrted with suemae agnes vivien
HAHHAHA.
can totally go crazy.
damn rain today made me achoo.
like siao.
:(

NICE GAME JUNIORS:D
haha.
though i almost died of shouting.
thurs's rgs match, jiayous.
(:
pikajuanton'll be there in my place:D

tmr's road run.
dont really feel like running, but who knows:O
LOL.
then class outing again.

lies exposed;

im starting to feel that i should really agree with juanjun and try what he says.
:O

RAWR.

its really,
much more than u can imagine.

dont ask for anything.
just your trueself and honesty.

for we.

Saturday, March 06, 2010 / 23:08

BDIV'2010.

the top11.

us again:D

im bored so i decided to post again to make my posts till 1000.

4years of blogging.

so i guess 250posts per yr?

:O

love for hurricanes will nvr die :D

dearest sec3s,

i really hope you all will respect suemae and clarice,

and start to attend more trns.

even aftr we left, we wont forget you all.

though you all may nt like us, but we really didnt dislike you all.

we've alw regard u all as our team, but you all alw anti-social one.

still rmbed the last time on bus on wed.

i shouted at u all.

but you all just gave no respect.

till i was angry and cried.

pls,

hurricanes is such a nice team.

take after our spirits and lead the leam well.

trust and fiath,

i believe you all can do it.

with the sec2s and sec1s. :)

suemae and clarice, i will miss both of you ALOTALOT.

cant really say here or u 2 will go aww:(

haha.

BBALL! is what make us bonder. :D

sec2s and 1s, its now your turn!

show them what you've got.

the pika power! :D

i shall lend u all pikajuanton hehe.

ive decided to focus on my studies, setting all the other things aside.

i knw you may not, but yeah just saying.

sorry in any way,

idk how to answer everything.

maybe when, ive got my ♥ back.

treating you as a normal friend,

:D.

feelings does fade.

right?

:x

/ 13:19

pikajuanton before he nose bleed! :D

going to be the 1000post soon,

5more. lol.

had our prize presentation ytd;

so LATE la haha

cause RI and Maris Stella still playing finals.

CONGRATS to RI.

ytd was so fun like OMG

it has been solong,

since hurricanes could play bball heartily. (:

with the permission of coach somemore:D

thanks qihui:D

i know what to do alrdy.

hehe.

im not going to plunge in any harder,

since things are not what they are as before.

i'll just keep everything to myself. (:

haha.

jiayou, lijuan.

im wondering if i should close down my blog.

:x

its meaningless alrdy.

and im nt posting much too. :/

Thursday, March 04, 2010 / 18:58

HURRICANES FTW
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS.
all the hard work and such.
didnt wana elaborate more;
or i will start crying again:/
THANKS HURRICANES
I LOVE YOU ALL (:

season finally ended somehow.
got to rest finally.
but worried about juniors.
GO JUNIORS(:
jiayous.

tell me how to pretend that i do not care;
and all sorts.
im tryingvery hard alrdy.
but its killing.
noone cares.

FIGHTIE. for the last time :(

Tuesday, March 02, 2010 / 17:09

today's bad.
and im in a damn extremely bad mood.
played bball during lunch today:D
the only :D thing hehe.
waited for penghwee for 1 hours aftr sch with jj.
tsk solong.
:/

TMR FINALS VS PEICAI @ CGS.
SUPPORTERS WITH CONSENT FORM PLS GATHER AT 2PM.
BUS LEAVE U GO URSELF
HEHE
THOSE WHO NO CONSENT FORM.
ER.
GO YOURSELF OR.
HAHAHA. I HOPE YOU KNW WHAT I MEAN :D

:(
last match
BESIDES SRC
go hurricanes, we can de.
we have won them in round 2,
we can tmr too :D
even though they may have more supporters than us
but im sure
with LIJUAN SUEMAE
you all will go crazy and high like our first time.
:D
started season at cresent, ending season at cresent too.
(:
the last time.
we are playing.
as a whole team.
:'(
hopefully everyone will turn up tmr. :D
100% tmr.
and im going to give all out
even if my hand dislocate.
LOL.

GO HURRICANES!
esp those top 9/10.
GO CHERYL:D nicepitch.
GO SWEEJOO:D goodstop.
GO ANNETTE:D nicestretch.
GO SUEMAE:D nicestop.
GO HUINENG:D nicetag.
GO CINDY:D nicethrow.
GO CLARICE:D nicecatch.
GO LIJUAN:D nicecover.
GO SULI:D goodcatch.
GO CHERIE:D nicehit.
GO EUNICE:D nice contact.
and.
GO HURRICANES! :D
WIN, SHA! (:

im bored enough to type all those.
im gonna ice and rub and do whatever with my hand again cuz its getting :'(
hais.
jiayous.

i wont hope.
cause i know.
it wont.

sorry juanjun i didnt succeed.
didnt even try.
:/

emo:/

Monday, March 01, 2010 / 22:51

heart's palpitating at a ridiculous speed idk why too:/
but its tired and sour.
frm everything.

it isnt the same as before;
everyone.
the way we talked,
reactions.
everything.
idk.
its getting lesser and everything.
useless.
speechless.
ahh.
mind's in a whirl.
shldnt think too much abt it.

congrats hurricanes for getting into finals:D
we did well today.
i like my tyco bunt. :D

hais.
not really in mood to blog.
bye.

INSIGNIFICANT;
third time im writting this but who cares.

my heart sour sour de
like got;
acid.
or alkaline uh.

thegirl.

wahlijuan.

♥ME!(:

i am 花俪娟 WAHLIJUAN.
ex-shuqunite, currently nanhuarian.
i've been to a lot of lovely classes:~~1I, 2I, 3H, 4H, 5C4, 6C4; 103, 203, 304~~
currently in 404!
i exist since 16.01.1994, going 16 soon!,
i am a SOFTBALLER,
and BELONGS TO NHURRICANES ;D
I PLAY CENTER-FIELD, pitcher.
iloves ALOT of stuff.
esp. hurricanes, 404, cfournians! bball mates as well:D
WAFFLES are nice:D pikachu rocks.
BBALL<3!
but i hates STUFF TOO.
like bitches & bastards, liars, esp FLIRTS.
and i dontlike empty-promises.
dont make me :'(
if you dont piss me off, i wont dislike you.

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