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Thursday, July 30, 2009 / 19:31
 lahlahlah.tmr's elect geog test. still writing notes. haven memo. :X but nehmind la. tmr no trn. just nw slept liao. so shld be okay. argh ____. just rmbed tmr got chem spa again. today was okay. cuz thurs is more of the nothing to do lessons. CEP, SS, EL, HCL, ASSEMBLY, MATH. no gummies :/ heh tmr taking team photos:D or rather level photos (: sian. i want go out :x anyone? i <3 u screwed and tired.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009 / 20:58
hehrecently life's screwed. dontknw why. lijuan's lazy to blog too. school's boring, as usual. just dont like the fact that morn assembly resumes nxt week. thinking of nomoresleep and attire checks and stuff. it just suck. sitting beside ziliang actually still okay la. just ask him to shuddup can liao. tests tests tests are all coming. and ive nt been putting in effort for all projects too. hais. trn's has been rather tiring n hiong nowadays. much more pt. as compared to hol trns. blisters blisters. but its gonna be reduced frm thrice a week to twice a week O.o nodiff leh. cts's starting right aftr national day. haven even revise anything yet tmr's math test, fri's egeog. and here im blogging. =.= i want gummies! haha. if nt sure sleep in lessons :X its just that wonderful special feeling. when you're alw beside me :D different.
Monday, July 27, 2009 / 20:32
today nth much fun.except trn (: dont like school. only want to sleep. XD i've always wondered. if i've always been making the right choice. :X hais. i just know. it isnt the same as before. are feelings lost? :'( 18moredays.
Saturday, July 25, 2009 / 22:59
today was quite a tiring day :/woke up damndamn early for cip. heh. but got slack. yiliang lahh. kept pulling me to play softball. then in the end. chiong chiong chiong like shit. late for some concert at church. went with laojie and ch. sry ah :X sortof screwed up. yeah. then amazingly became a christian. afterwhich mrted to jp with sis. had dinner at KFC. nw homed. haha still got ALOT hmk. but im tired out alrdy :/ next sat. plus 22/8. 29/8. cip cip cip. LOL. aixin told me i can dunk there:D cool. im sleepppyy. jiayous ah lijuan. (: its just 3words. why so diff ah. long time no see;
Friday, July 24, 2009 / 20:53
today was sianned. :Xexcept for trn. math. did some grp work which drained up my brain cells. pe. played frisbee. chem. bio test. i think im flunking it. :/ to think ytd i still watched bball match till like 6++ but 304 TOTALLY ROCK:D thanks prcs and penghwee and xuanhao, lol. see some of them like injured i also heartache liao hah then geog. dont knw why time alw pass very fast during geog lessons. physics. damn fun la. lol CHINA VS SINGAPORE PHYSICS QN 9. china rep: aixin -> chaoyi. minghao asked qns too. spore rep: penghwee. mr pandian damn funny la. he just say he knows the ans is C. LOL anw he announced that SINGAPORE WON! (: lol clapps clapps. training. pt pt. pitch pitch. bat bat. throw throw. pt pt. lol. arms and legs damn suan. tired too tmr's gonna be a long day. but i'm sure. it will be a joyful day (: no voice.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 / 20:07
heh.my voice is like trailing off very soon and its damn sexy eh. today another day freezing cold and somemore feeling damn unwell in sch :X dismissed at 12. had lunch at subway with like 8ppl. annette tingjian lionel yiliang weisiang eugene deren dingxuan damncrapp la. lol. went crazy in class over the game heart attack. haha had olevel LC. froze. like seriously. kept sneezing :X our invigilator damn funny la. thought we were at the fourth floor. then nvr release us. heh bussed with suli. homeed. tmr theres two tests. haven study yet. :X flu.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 / 19:11
having serious flu.and i think im gonna lose my voice real real soon. today is a totally freezing day la. im frozen all day long. fpsp exam is totally ____ la. LOL trn resumed :D heh but muscles ache alrdy. :/ tmr's listening. dismissed at 12. starts at 230 =.= 35min paper =.=lll nomatter what. im nt giving up. the world's turning.
Saturday, July 18, 2009 / 10:08
"还搞不懂心痛是什麽似懂非懂成云朵 爱得汹涌来不及闪躲 我却为她坠落 梦堘我泪滑落几回 心软弱了逃避是非 潜意识我心碎 梦醒了我张开双臂 只愿为爱勇敢一点不后退 有谁会在乎有谁会想念 有谁能看穿我的笑脸 沉默的瞬间 寂寞却伴着我长眠 你走的坚决枯竭了爱恋 我给的一切 梦堘我我的泪滑落几回 心软弱软弱了逃避是非 潜意识我心碎 梦醒了我醒了张开双臂 只愿为爱勇敢一点不后退 有谁会在乎有谁会想念 有谁能看穿我的笑脸 沉默的瞬间 寂寞却伴着我长眠 你走的坚决不后悔 有谁会在乎有谁会想念 沉默的瞬间 寂寞却伴着我长眠 你走的坚决枯竭了爱恋 我给的一切 爱得汹涌来不及闪躲 我却为她坠落" this song's nice. and a lot of other nice songs too:D going out in 6mins. to sch till 2pm. for cip. btw harrypotter movie is nice:D hehe both me n sijia grabbed each other's hands like shit while haiyun kept telling us to relax. LOL but so far i guess the nicest is still the goblet of fire. :D 2hhours plus mive. sat till butt hurts. went home at like 10plus. heh idk what im feeling. its friday! :D
Friday, July 17, 2009 / 16:47
its friday:Dgoing out soon to meet sijia. then watch harrypotter movie as soon as haiyun come. lol. sch was quite fun today:D idk why lets see. changed seats. haha bye lionel. bye weisiang. dont worry i'll miss u guys. futhermore, CHIYANG!! :X first 2periods. math. mrstong got meeting. thus free 2 periods then pe. played some some games. quite fun. chem spa. damn cool. hehe. then. biology. feel like slping :X geog. then a little assembly abt H1N1 physics a little. homeed. gtg out now:D hehe phototaking!
Thursday, July 16, 2009 / 20:19
today had class phototaking.but nt complete :X xuanhao la. you ah you. gws. heh me qihui lixiang were the only girls at 3rd row:D feel accomplished. thurs is nice but boring. =.= aftr sch stayed back to do cip. till6++ :D quite fun. n chaoyi really sings DAMNDAMN NICE (: tmr movie with haiyun n sijia :D today damndamndamn nomood. coz. yeah. where are you? :/ sleep :X
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 / 19:23
i need sleep like seriously.ALOT ALOT ALOT. hais. but i nid do a lot of hmk :X die. haha watching some nice nice magic show:D taiwan dramas. today stomachache the whole day. feel like dying alrdy. its 2003 now. i did 2 qns of math ONLY. stil nid redo suibi and do fpsp :( bang wall. why isit that. it always happen that the person i want to tok to doesnt tok to me then the person i dont want to tok to tok to me? weird weird stuff. okay im tired. yawn. recently a lot of songs r nice. like zhang dong liang's, guo jing's, ariel etc. :D Tuesday, July 14, 2009 / 21:03
suddenly i feel like.closing down my blog. :X pissed at everything.
/ 19:20
idk.but recently these few days, my life suck. im getting pissed easily. doing all the wrong things. thinking of all the wrong things. somehow i even wondered if i will ever regret decisions of anything i made. is it me? or them. idontreally know. school was a bore as usual. and i spent more time writing lyrics and diary than paying attention i guess. moreover with lionel behind and weisiang beside. hw can u even hear what the tchrs r saying =.= aftr sch stayed back for cip. with a lot of ppl. haha. damn fun luh:D i ordered 2 too. hopefully will turn out well. on my way home. saw swelwin outside nus. bussed home tgt. crapped a lot like shit. ohman. i miss talking to her. haha. solong le la :X maybe we shld really have a nice nice talk soon(: friday jping with sijia and haiyun. for happypottermovie. :D recently i feel like going ________ but idk if i should. or rather if i could. hais. anyone has a pair of ears to lend me? and. a shoulder. flow of tears. effed
Monday, July 13, 2009 / 19:13
everything i do seems to be wrong.what has come over me? trust. i nid trust. argh. it shuldnt be like this. wth are you doing, lijuan? jealousy.
/ 18:43
"站在寂寞的舞台上灯光下拖着自己的影子 音乐重复我们共同的忧伤 不是每一次的演唱 就可以淡忘明天没有你 in my heart we'll never be apart 残留手上的香味提醒我 在数位相机里留下的承诺 每一封简讯传出的思念 都对你说 Sarang Haeyo means i love you 代表着我离不开你 每分每秒每一个声音 只有你撒娇会让我微笑 Sarang Haeyo只对你说 i will love you and forevermore 我答应 baby you will see 每一个我都属于你 ye~ 残留手上的香味提醒我 在数位相机里留下的承诺 每一封简讯传出的思念 都对你说 Sarang Haeyo means i love you 代表着我离不开你 每分每秒每一个声音 只有你撒娇会让我微笑 Sarang Haeyo只对你说 i will love you and forevermore 我答应 baby you will see 每一个我都属于你 oh baby i will love you because 我都属于你" heh. song of the day(: today in sch also nt much stuff & mood. lol. just that weisiang kept dancing. haha. and bio practical was fun:D same table as chiayng xinyuan aixin. crapped alot. hehe aftr sch lunched with cheryl. lol. see i so nice:D jiayous ah cheryl. ur oral on wed. (: tmr's chiyang's birthday. 生日快乐！:D I HAVE BEEN WONDERING FOR VERY VERY LONG. WHEN ON EARTH IS TRN GOING TO START.:X then nw everyday aftr sch nth to do. except hmk. hais. a little happy thing today. i ate waffles! haha:D waffles are really nice. began to think that jealousy suck. i wondered what im wondering... >faith; confidence. LIJUAN LOVES WAFFLES(: emperor's new clothes.
Sunday, July 12, 2009 / 20:21
haha.the performance was the emperor's new clothes. and it lasted 2hours. LOL. quite funny la. and all r like kiddos with parents. except for me and eelin :X and eelin ah. u shld feel honoured. haha u noe what i mean. then eelin was totally red when the whole bunch of guys came:X hahahah. damn funny n weird la i homed myself. left them alone:D hais. idk why. but recently most of my mood are spoilt. :/ i guess. even tmr. a memorable day. i think i'll emo the whole day :( sian. i want trns. i want trns! the only thing that can cheer me up :D remember? :D
/ 10:54
lijuan loves weekends like ___ (:heh. can sleep like 3hrs later. ytd night went to watch transformers with ch at jp the slot at 2030. haha. in the end watched till 2306. damn cool la. first time watch till so late :X jp was even closed alrdy. lol. homed at 2346. great day ytd. thanks alot. (: ltr going out with eelin. to some performance. lol. suddenly dont really feel like going :/ nehmind. promise her liao. sweet. :P sweets(:
Friday, July 10, 2009 / 20:12
hehe today is like rushing mood :Xhad triple science, electgeog, math, pe today no languages:D 2 sciences r for SPA. cant finish both la :X chem did with chiyang, bio did with penghwee. dont really like practicals. physics was the last 2lessons. headache. and oh. lionel sophia zhengyu chaoyi werent in school today. our class got like 8 ppl fever. or maybe more. get well soon ah, allofyou. haha lionel's absence was a joy to me and chiyang but a sadness to weisiang. :/ aftr sch lunched with softballers+jerrald+yiliang. then jped with suli. damn funny la:D and i bought my memopad. damn cute (: and i found out i can actually get fantacised by sweets like for very long i love sweets:D now got mood do hmk. but i wan slp. tmr tuition n going out i guess. sun. mugg. hais classtests are all comingsoon. JIAYOUS. lijuan doesnt like school :X
Thursday, July 09, 2009 / 21:03
today's a no science lessons day.which means. its gna be boring than ever. except for oral com. haha. my grp presented during assembly slot. then weisiang's and lionel's way of ans questions damn funny la. laughed like shit. aftr sch lunched with cheryl cindy jerrald. goodluck ah. to those who haven take oral. recently alw have this no-mood thing dont knw what came over me. maybe just that ______. but i simply find school a bore. im lazy to do hmk as well. but cts are real soon. eoy too. argh. see nomotive in life. lol. sonow, who really cares abt me? communication;
Wednesday, July 08, 2009 / 19:55
i feel that going to school on wed is totally ___.reading period. malay. chem. hcl. math. eng. okay, maybe except for chem :D oral today. was the 7th one of my group. okay la. abt what we wanted to be when we grow up :D damn juanjun. arghh. eunice accompanied me aftr my oral. (: hommed. hais. dont feel like going school. :X no trns anw. recently damn nomood. its like everyone's pissing me off :X today i finally really realised. how impt communication is. :O
Tuesday, July 07, 2009 / 19:56
heh.im preparing to die tmr during oral :X cuz im now writing to el oral com scripts. haven prepare for oral. ahhh. :( lijuan. jiayous ah! today was crapp la. feel as though today went sch for nth. hais. one fine day i shall settle down and complete all my stuff. i want toys from those toy catching machine! aha. so cool and nice la. :D sudden inspiration frm shows. lol hopefully i wont screw things up recently. haha. sounds sick. but i love hearing your voice XD lijuan hates dogs.
Monday, July 06, 2009 / 19:20
went lib early in the morn for proj.was the 2nd to reach. saw weisiang! aha. then there was this show filming there. very funny la. yiliang and eugene came too. then lionel was the latest. 1h late. =.= left soon at 1130. offed to jerrald's house with cherie yiliang lionel ate lunch tgt with jerrald and cheryl too. then bought snacks. then went jerrald's house. saw cookie :X dont like her then twice she chased me like shit. i kept running too. it came and licked me and did wadever stuff. they la they! dont leashed her. once i locked myself in room. then dont knw who told me can go out le. i opened door then cookie came i jumped onto the bed then SHE CAME POUNCING towards me. i screammed like shit then locked myself in toilet. almost cant get out :X played mahjong too. lol. help yiliang lose money. :D intheend went home early with lionel. cuz i dont like cookie. sorry ah cheryl :X thinking of 99ways to bake cookie. LOL tmr sch reopen wed's olvl chi oral. i haven even prepare yet :X dont want go school! somemore 7ppl in our class dio fever liao hais i really dont mind waiting. if i know you sure will. but what if intheend. theres nth? cold.
Sunday, July 05, 2009 / 20:28
brr.fezzing cold now. :X aha. today woke up early. went jp met sinnee study chi oral. slacking most of the time:X then in the aftn penghwee came. crapped. :/ i went off earlier at like 3plus. went mac for bball saw zy and eelin. damn cool lurh. 3 ppl nia. somemore it was raining. haha damn funny. zy kept saying like aftr he finish his food the rain will stop but eventually, it didnt drizzling then 5plus. we cant wait le then go play. haha. abc. then match. WE AND EELIN OWNED ZHANGYONG. ahahaha but the groud is damn slippery. somemore me n eelin wearing slippers. then despte the rain we continued playing. till suddenly rain damn big then we went off me n eelin went kfc. camped a while then homed. haha 3 ppl nia. but still fun:D slack talk bball. yaoxiang alw ask ppl go play then in the end he ps =.= tmr going jerrals'd house suddenly dont feel like it :X i nid time. do hmk and revise. hais. but if i didnt go. i bet they'll kill me. lol. happiness. (: iloveyou :D waiting :/
Saturday, July 04, 2009 / 22:40
im borred.nomood to do hmk. in that one hr and one min, lijuan refreshed her inbox for like more than 100times. decided.
/ 22:13
all i can do now is to wait.1550 words of sincerity. hoping you get it. tmr going out study. then bball with c4nians. goodluck to lijuan. she needs that a lot. / 20:30
idk what to think alrdy.it was wrong of me to doubt. but, i just cant get rid of that feeling. arghh. fuck. i hate it. 想用一杯latte把你灌醉 好让你能多爱我一点 暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉 早有人陪的你永远不会 看见你和他在我面前 证明我的爱只是愚昧 你不懂我的那些憔悴 是你永远不曾过的体会 为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解 我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切 你又狠狠逼退 我的防备 静静关上门来默数我的泪 明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会 我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天 直到那一天 你会发现 真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲 曾经我以为我自己会后悔 不想爱得太多痴心绝 对为你落第一滴泪 为你作任何改变 也唤不回你对我的坚决 its tmr.
Friday, July 03, 2009 / 19:50
thought a lot.came to my senses. made my decisions. one more day to go. realised when ppl knew that they may be losing someone soon, they will gradually. recall all the memories and realised hw much they actually love them. you're always nt alone; cuz when you need me, i will alw be by your side. nomatter what happens. it will nvr change. 幸福是要自己去争取的； 爱情是个陷阱，就像结上了不该结的蛛網，从此让分离有了牵绊. sick :(
/ 19:18
damn.nw i've got flu+sorethroat+cough. 5ppl in 304 got fever liao. hopefully i wont :X lots of things to catch up these 3 days. chinese olevel oral is on wed, and i haven prepared anything yet. more of it. nomood to prepare. lazy mood. but going out on sun with sinnee and penghwee. :D then mon still. morn go proj with. yiliang lionel weisiang eugene annette. then go JERRALD's (i spelt double rs) house again. with 9 of them i think. cheryl cindy cherie yiliang lionel jiajie sweejoo huineng? eunice? have fun(: today was quite a moodswing day. and i totally chionged thru the math test. then still got time to write full lyrcis of a song :X hopefully i wuld pass. oh. just heard frm qihui jolene dio fever too. so now 6. maybe i'll be the 7th? :X lijuan declares.
Thursday, July 02, 2009 / 20:59
total loss.should i be selfish? idk. 2moredays to go. decision. i know you're sad now. but i cant talk to you. feel so useless. all i want you to know is that. even if you lose everything. you still have me. :D 从前从前有个人爱你很久 但骗偏偏，风渐渐 把距离吹得好远。 i'm freeeed (:
Wednesday, July 01, 2009 / 22:34
hehe:Drealised im freed from alot of stuff :D tests. relationships and stuff. i am a BIRD~ fly fly fly~ to somewhere nice beautiful and relaxing. last day of cts over liao(: lahlahlah. today i find sch fun for the first time. okay nt really fun, btr than others. i think i can pass physics too:D aftr sch went jp with gina:D shopped ate. walked like shit. till 7++. aha. lijuan's damn nice lah. bought present for minghao. (: bought nice nice earings too. aha. suddenly feel like going for another piercing. :/ love earingssssss :D i want to buy more storybooks too. recently want to read lots of chi nice nice books. i still nid buy clothes, jackets all those stuff. :D sosiann. i think at this rate im going broke real soon. :x anyone wants go out with lijuan tmr? she's bored. she wants go gymm. get rid of her fats. hehe. i think i shld really stop watching idoldramaseries. aha. they're influencing me like shit. lol.' like the scenes all those. aiyoh. still haven do hmk still. hmmm. i've alrdy planned what im going to do. aha. and an aim for which sch i wana go to aftr olvels. although it will be damndamn hard. but. JIAYOUS AH. :D dont ever give up on any glimpse of hope. stupid sis laptop donesnt allow me to go online :( lijuan can change. :D :'(
/ 22:34
"要收回已经给其他人的东西，应该很难吧？ 好想大哭一下” dogs.
/ 21:21
school was ___ today.nth much. aftr sch went to jerald's grandparents' house. haha cuz of cookie the dog. cheryl wants to look and play with it. but me eunice cindy are scared of dogs. haha have a bit fun there although hmk productivity rate wasnt that much. ate waffles too. :D i love waffles:D nxt mon sch hol. anyone wants bball? if nt i'll just slp at home n slack:X and oh. weisiang dio fever too! aiyo. gws! wondering if there will be a third one who got fever in 304. and. nanhua got 2nd case of h1n1 liao. o.o i got flu :X doing 作文 nw bt cant concentrate :( headache. i want slp. feel like forget it abt zuowen :X okay i shld. lijuan declares: I AM GOING TO SLP AND HACKED MY ZUOWEN:D |
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