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Tuesday, September 18, 2007 / 16:09
 ohgod.i had a quarrel wif x today. P.S u noe dhere's always a limit to EVERYTHING. and x had exceeded. i was like writing to x during el lesson hoping to clear everything. but it turned out lyk hell. i cried upon writing. onli szehwee knew. after which. lunch. conference of the same stuffs again. and i was painting. dhen rach told me whad x told her. pls lurhhs. i didnt say specify it was x. i said they all. dhen i was like telling sinnee whad i feel and i cired in the toilet AGAIN. rach oso. when we went back xuanhao;huiqi dey all all crowdin at x dhere. f. i knew tis will happen. they said x cried. wl. yeah; so??? i cried too. and noone comfort me but x got so many. they of cuz will sympathise x for x's innocent face dhat cheated lots of ppl. and ESP. x even let them c the letter. WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. ITS MY PAPER AND MY PRIVACY. they all think its my fault or whad. PLS LURHH they onli hear one side of the story can? they onli hear bout whad she feels. but nt us. me; rach. x will lie too. u wun noe. u cant judge a book by its cover. and summore. x got the xx to believe her. BELIEVE lurhhs. nvm scold me forr all i care if u all hate me i will accept. cuz basically u all arent me u all dhunno how i felt. dhhen i went out to get my math textbook and junwei was dhere i slammed the locker and he tot i angry wif him no junwei. i arent angry wif u thus dhun nid to apologise to me. dhen juanjun was like dhere blocking the door. i simply juz pulled off his hand. i dhun even wann to go back to my OWN seat. face x. and xx. but eventually; i did. and i went back. i saw how everyone comfort her; its nt that i m jealous or whad. bt. why can they be liddat? i noe they dhun treat me as friends. but i will even appreciate it even if u onli smile at me. but none of them did. they stared at me as though i m going to get a death sentence and avoiding me further they will have less trouble liddat. u noe how sad i feel? i cried AGAIN. for the third time. it happened that szehwee and cuiling came to noe bout it. dhen cuiling started to explain to me bout x. i cried even more. i dhun understand at all. n seriously i dhun think this was a misunderstanding u noe. does x have a motive? i dhunno, basically to juz say i dhun trust x dhat much. and dhat xx juz looked as though EVERYTHING WAS MY FAULT. i m really damn sad. dhen cuiling asked me to clam down. i managed to, but dhen i started to cry again. so i asked her to write letter. we did. and i discovered dhat x said smth and said i said de but i dint. nt at all. x was lying? x said that cuz xx tok to her dhen i jealous. NO; i DIDNT. whad i told x was dhat i wun feel anything cuz im used to it. and dhat's the truth. if x "kanwobushuang" can say derhhs. i already noe this since feb. honestly. i had been putting up wif her cuz i wan peace. but everything has a limit. and i juz cant tolerate it anymore. i dhun wan to regain friendship wif x. i dhun care if she wann a not. for the time being i m going on my own way and let the nature take its course. but i aint sure bout rach, i think she dhun ever wan to regain friendship wif x anymore. me n rach points of views are the same. however, we will find evidence b4 accusing. and the other xxx oso. she dhun like me anymore. i can see that. nvm. xxx has great influence; though. juz let her be. she can backstab or influence the whole class ferr i care. cuz i believe in retribution. i've gotta get myself stronger. i dhunn wan to be liddis anymore. and most probably; i gonna lose lots of friends. i m prepared to. juz let them hate me. i m fine with it. i cant control whad they think bout me. i dhun have the rights to. juz let me live a little longer can?? i noe sooner or later i m going to die soon. i onli wann to be happy b4 i die. is dhere anything wrong wif it? i dhunno. maybe its tomolo. dhen this will end. dhun worry i arent evil enuff to haunt them.. *** |
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