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Friday, August 31, 2007 / 16:32
 it was my fault.my mistake. my carelessnees. my foolishness. my stupidness. my lousiness. my misundersatnding. my fate. my life. i was hell. i m a sucker. i am a fcker. i am a biatch. i am gonna die;; Thursday, August 30, 2007 / 20:52
back to post abt todayfinally haf time (: EL: at comp lab but dhen my grp finished lerhhs. about 1/4 of the class was abt shuanhock's blog. heyy. its NOT ur fault. cheer up sia (: PE: ahchan nt here so still continue to stay in comp lab (: RECESS: quite worried bout sh. dunno if he will gt depression sia. lols. GEOG: i was quite sadd cuz of dhat guy. walao. he vry bad lo. penghwee lied to me dhen lead to misunderstandings.... I LOVE MY LAOPO HUIQI!! MATH: wanna sleep. ahchan nt here again; mr chee was nice. i simply juz love coordinate geometry LUNCH: PIZZA!!! thanks ms verlyn n ms koh 3cheers n 3cheers n 3cheers for 103! lols. ASSEMBLY: NO ASSEMBLY. packed locker. no. empty locker. i think my box is 3kg. lols ENRICHMENT: sians cube. i wanna sleep sia... lols. tchr give out papaer we go fold / tear in the end kana scolded and it is counted in the report bk. XD AFTER SCH: actually i n rach wanna go do movie. in the end com nt available. so we helped out in the mid autumn stuff. after everyone left, onli me; rach; penghwee; shuanhcok stayed n helped to clean up. lijuan was smart sia. i went to search for a pail n a mop den go scrub till like hell lurhhs. dhen the end shuanhock they all copied me. lols. we tok n tok.. (: played n played damn fun. shuanhock treat us "cha zi dian"?? lols. we have lots of "cheng jiu gan". hahas quite okayy. dhen played truth or dare we swore too. fun fun fun. lols at abt 5++, suli joined in n ahlyn came down. O.o SHE REALLY DID TREAT US DRINKS. suli nvr even do at all she got free drinks sia. nt fair derhhs lols dhen we all went to play again while waiting ferr jingyi to take taxi hm cuz our boxes were like damn heavy. SUILI and shuanhock were damn funny la. suli was funnier. lols. we all laughed till tears drop lurhhs. dhen the NC gals; band gals; dance gals came down. O.o we still play. we r already like rolling on the floor la esp sh. hahas they thinks we r crazy?! at 6++ we went hm. me; suli; jingyi n shuanhock called the taxi no in canteen till like hell la i asked jy if wanna tell suli whad i ask sh. sh says no dhen i say on one condition. he be my diix. lols. he agreed. me n shuanhock helped jy to carry. see? we r nice ppls. so in the end we went out to hail. waited for like 10mins dhen finally boarded lols. sh sat in frnt dhen we 3 gals at the back actually we planned dhat i get down the taxi firz. but we tok to the taxi driver dhen sh was e one who nid to get down firx. hahas he was quite auiet thruout the 'journey' we 3 gals kept toking n toking. lols bukit batok; jurong west; boonlay. hahas finally reached hm at 1915 (:: sh was e onli one who didnt ask ferr to stop in frnt of his condo and oos onli the one who almost fell into a pool. WAHAHHAHAHAHAS. lols lijuan gtg.. bye (: Wednesday, August 29, 2007 / 15:51
lijuan's back after a vry long time siacuz my sis is sitting for her prelims this mth. and she dun allow me to on the comp.. GRRR. lijuan has bought a nice nice bag ferr him together wif gina ng!!! (::: looking forward to 31AUG!! <33 even if he didnt go, nvm lols. (: hahas lijuan misses softball!!! lols. LIJUAN GOT GOLD FOR NAPFA. wow. FIRST TIME i had nv even gotton a silver before!!! (::: Wednesday, August 22, 2007 / 20:12
i have been thru all these for quite a long time.thanks shihui; agnes; cuiling; sinzhii (: i know who is that person. nevermind'' replies:: cuiling: thanks (: u r nice too (: shihui: yeahhh. agree (: ahpiips: okay sure. lijuan will heed ur advice. ahzhi: lols? ****************** everything is cleared. but i wanna say smth;; I DUN REALLY HATE JUNWEI... Saturday, August 18, 2007 / 21:08
i wanted to end everything;;i think i m total failure;; adviser for sumhow but i m giving up too. i think i will go crazy if this continues... but i m quite lucky to having my gd frens (= [[hais. i just hoped that 31AUG would come again. and hopefully he's dere. so that maybe i will nt think that much again.. or maybe will i? going back to sch though. but i really hope that we can recall the memories of the past. oh yarrhs. and i wounldnt forget. the 5TH floor waterhose dere XD hais. but i tink he wouldnt care at all barhhs. our distances grew far apart lerhhs even when we chatted on msn is like we've got nth to tok abt. i am always the one who started to tok first. but sumhow when we reached the time when we had nth to tok abt lerhhs i kinda feel sadd. its like. hais. i feel as if i had a lot to say but juz dunno whad to. [[LIJUAN's saddd.] Friday, August 17, 2007 / 22:10
GRRR.nvr mind abt the post that i blogged today during IT. but i AM still ANGRY. GRRRR. *** [[today]] math test-- yeah. lots of us think that we r gonna fail. and i hope i wun... if i fail math n geography... hais. dun even wanna think whad will be the outcome sia. EL-- fun (: did the newspaper report stuff. tiefeng is funny too. (= EL LIT-- okayy lurhh. hardly had time to really discuss the project. IT-- ya. i played the com throughout the whole lesson (: and the guys in 103 really too much le la. esp. since when did i offended him? why muz he treat me liddat? "treat others the way u wan others to treat u" wun he ever understand dhat? MATH-- yeah. spotting differences. i m sure i m lousy at that. den blah blah blah math lesson. i miss mr tan!!! >.< HCL-- funny. junwei, shuanhock, xuanhao and aaron were being punished by mdm leong to stand outside the class.. ya. STAND. but they secretly took chairs out and do their MATH hw. LOL. mdm leong discovered. too bad. JUANJUN; i sprayed water at him. and he sprayed back. BUT I M WETTER. he sprayed till like hell larxx. poor rachel; anyway. lawls. HISTORY-- as usual; ms tan was late again. but this time round its for 17mins. lols. i nvr bring my wrkbk.. stand stand lo. rachel got bring bt she wan stand. hahahas *** after sch went mac wif rach, agnes, vivian. oh yarhhs. its fun!!! (= sumhow those i dun care that much abt them anyway my impression of them is already like hell. hais. and i think i gonna give up soon. ;;; [RACHEL! AGNES! VIVIAN! (==] happy pre-birthday to RACHEL!!! <333] / 10:57
walao.lijuan really do hate those ppl that teased others. if they were ebing teased, whad will their feelings this? i'm sorry to say this, but i m going to say that THEY R REALLY DAMN CHILDISH these people really sucks. and that WY she thinks she whad? she's onli a flirt using other ppl to attract guys, thats what i think she's up to. give ppl's pics to others for whad? and warn u, u dun have any rights to do that. NO PERMISSIONS AT ALL. i rather u sell them hurh? so rich lerrhhs still nid $$$ not enuff hurh? thinks of others before self liah doing such shameless stuffs will make ppl hate u derhh lorhs.. one day, when i have tolerate enufff i will explode. seriously frm today onwards i aint going to help them anymore WAHING MY HANDS OFF THEM. Thursday, August 16, 2007 / 15:44
i m really damn sad today.THE GUYS IN MY CLASS SUX!!!!!!!!! i hate them to core. very fun when teasing ppl issit? if u guys were me, how will u feel? happy hurh? even if u tease ppl, dere muz be a limit to it derhhs u noe not till when other ppl cries. U ALL FREAKS. and thats include YOU. YOU are the one that hurt me the most. I WILL NV EVER FORGIVE ALL OF YOU. [hatred] [tears] [depressed] [heartbroken] Wednesday, August 15, 2007 / 15:27
lawls. today's the firx time dhat i reached home before 1500hahas. (: *** vivian and xh are back lawls. history test. uhhuh. ok ok la. chinese lesson. changed place wif cuiling!! i love rachel! <333 el. okok luhh. tiefeng is funny. *** i wrote lots of stuffs on the board. the idiots xh and sh went to comment and erased. walau. i hate them la art. okok. wanna sleep. math. depressed. homeecon. quite fun. but i FAILED my test. OMG *** after sch, went to ntuc at clementi wif rachel (: we had fun dere (: after dhat i went home... i saw zavier and weijet. lols. they dun regconise me at all. pls la. i oso nv change much lo... haisss. *** lijuan wanna die le liah. she's freaked out. Tuesday, August 14, 2007 / 17:15
I M FAILING GEOG.u believe? end of my world~~~ ------------ xh and vivian both got fever thus they r absent today. hmmmm.. so 'qiao' arhhs hahas. jkjk vivian will kill me derhhhs THE FIRST TIME I PASS MY EL TEST MORE THAN 3 MARKS. yayyeee. 22/30 and i m happy enuuf le lo hahahahhahahaas i m easily contended, u see. (: GET WELL SOON TO THE BOTH OF YOU!!! ------------------------ hey. D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-O-N is very dangerous one okayy? dun think too much, like me. at least i dun think u will go cut urself sia.. have scars lerhhs den nt nice liaos. though u can have sum patterns u wann [no, dun do dhat. i m juz lame.] dun do anything foolish or i will scold u like whad u did to me. reason for u to live: ur loved ones. [i may be exaggerating, bt didnt noe whad would happen] hahahahas stay healthy!!! faced the problem with the most optimistic sight. if u sad i will be sad too. lols. muz cheer up!!! (: I WILL BE BEHIND U ALWAYS!!!! Sunday, August 12, 2007 / 22:21
lawls.finished memorising LIT. i onli like little ironies of lit. hahas i've come back with the 3rd surprise!!! i met mrs yeo online today XD hahas. lijuan's having surprises these days and sum r RARE too; u noe tomolo's exam is onli half an hour. YEAHHH but the bad thing is juz dhat we can onli skipp 15mins of BIO. hahas. lijuan's cruel. but dhat muz oso depends if she can concentrate tml!! (: ------------------------- WALIAOS>> are u the one who tagged on C4blog?? nvm. no one own up. and i've admit its me. NVM aint a big deal anw. and its nt that i dun trust you;; its juz that sumtimes ur actions made me wonder.. sryer den. and i think i have apologised to u more then 20times since 080807 one day we r happy; okay the next we quarrel AGAIN. what pattern is dat? more likely its friendship pattern of 2 of us haissx when will dhat ever end.. u dun even seem to care abt me at all like as if letting me die liddat whad the use? i cant see. whadever memories that we shared in the past are of nth in u heart but they are priceless to me!!! in the end after all these i shall onli be the one who still remembers of the past i shall onli be the one who cherish our friendship'' -------------------------- gd luck to fellow ppl who are having their EXAMS!! (: Surprises do come.
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hellloweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i'm back.. lijuan has got to relax first, for she's mad right now... calm down. you noe, i was like signing in my new msn acc.. den saw sum1 left me offline instant msgs.. it was.. erhhs. JUSTIN. WOW. OMG. i thought we have already lost touch since; u noe. but last x saw him at jurong point; wif the help of zhangyong. lawls. i noe he went catholic high. but i'd nv knew we will keep in contact again after whad had happen. i think i had long forget him. hahas. which makes me sound so evil. but i think he will soon block me upon noeing who i m. AWWW. dhat will be so sad lurhhs nvm.. recently i m having juz too many surprises. like whad gina said, surprises do come its juz if u can take it or nt recently of chenhui's appearance at gathering and today... i still dunno if i m taking it real HARD. it seems like it was ALL a dream. even if its so; i wouldnt wann to wake up frm dere!! hahas I JUZ MISS C4 SO MUCHHHH hehes. changed da skin. pls do visit!!!! Labels: Surprises do come. Friday, August 10, 2007 / 20:58
funny.i've got caring frends sia. hahas cherie! cuiling! thx for ur concern I M FINE (: well; alive; in one piece still. GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE common tests nxt week ya, gonna STUDY STUDY. hahas. but dat doesnt mean i wun post or update my blog!!! muz continue to visit AND TAG XD anw... those ppl who dunno. add me at XsucidalXcuts@hotmail.com thanks (: / 12:39
thanks shuwuen; gina; sijia. (:i m okayaeess now. hais. but sumhow if u all still ask me if i lyk him; i will be dunbfounded. but now i treat everyone as my frends. dun think too much (: love you guys!!! cried.
Thursday, August 09, 2007 / 19:52
i am so sorry...it was MY fault. i started it first without thinking of ur feeling i promised that it will not happen again it's over. lets be friends back okays? ------------------------- well. i had a severe quarrel with chenhui on msn. it was the FIRST time i cried all along while toking to him but it was all over nw. frends forever!' [[i will;]]-LOLS / 17:58
i am really depressed kaes.i feel like dying. [HE] seems to hate me lots and i dunno why i tried my best to do wadever i can but the ans is always "NO"... OH MY BLOODY GOD.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007 / 18:46
hello ppl.i am back.... (: 3CHEERS N 3CHEERS N 3CHEERS FOR 103!! WE ARE THE 1ST RUNNER UP FOR THE WHOLE CHEERING COMPETITION. even won sec2s. lalalas looking forward to pizzas being treat by MS KOH and MS VERLYN! HAHAS. ************** went gathering. PPL DERE: ANQI, EELIN, ZHOUHUI, TRISHA, LUCINDA, BINBIN, SHUWUEN, GINANG, GEELING, YIPCHI, YAOXIANG, ZHANGYONG, CHENHUI, TINGJUN, LIJUAN, HAIYUN, SIJIA, SHIHUI, JAYDA, WANXIN. was queuing up buyin drink when suddenly saw chenhui. I TOT HE ISNT COMING OR WADEVER HAD GONE BACK TO CHINA? he said hello to me. oh well. den said abt CHINGHANG. SEE? i knew it!!! chenhui = chinghang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! walao. den scammed me ferr whad la. sat beside him. OH. den he wanna put his bag down. still nid to ask me. lol. tingjun scolded him? went play bask. NICE LA. chenhui kept aking allen to block me. wa liao. den say smth everytime i wanna shoot. GRRR he almost fell on me ONCE >.< wow. i have da energy to throw half cpurt wif only ONE hand. hahahas. den ZY they all came. YAYYEEE. but den... i noe chenhui still like her, it was obvious. severe mood swings anw. feel like vomitting. so nv play dat much. myabe its bcuz i have NO LUNCH at all. < i have juz taken weight when i arrived home, and i lost 2KG.> WOW. bt ltr we went to blk 530 dere n play. i was writing diary at firz. and chenhui kinda ignore me. quite sad, though. but ltr played match again. FUNNY!!!! hahas. dere was once haiyun shot, it did nt went in. me n chenhui tried to snatch... and he 'fell' on me. but i landed on the floor. and the ball hit me on my head. HOW UNLUCKY CAN DAT BE LA. he dun dare to be dat rough when snatching ball wif me lerhhs. LOL gals won. (: hahas, den we went at 1705. hais. i went MRT to add value to my EZLINK, and went back lookin ferr da guys. but dey were gone. sad sad sad and i vomitted on my way home. AWWWWWWW. feeling so sick. sunburn tooo. anw, dat may be the last memory of me n him...... and i will die. Monday, August 06, 2007 / 21:20
STUCKED UP.hais.. BIo lesson was boring still, and CEP was much worse. or maybe its juz dat i dunno how to appreciate dem. haisss I AM TOTAL DISSAPPOINTED IN MY GEOG RESULTS so u guys stop asking kaes? history lesson i was feeling DAMN SICK. feel like vomiting la. and i oso discovered a horrible truth. juz at dat period. i cant concentrate at all la. FAILING HUMANTITIES~~~ and dats it. dat goes my fav subj geog. if in dat case i rather not study anymore. bloody shyt. still nid to face all those ppl i rather wished i have died. i agree totally wif whad tingjun typed on his post. and all u nid to commit suicide, is juz a penknife slit ur wrist and go. watching ur blood dripping. and BLACKED OUT. u've fainted. or rather u've wished u already die... at least i still have MUYU & AHPIIPX YU to cheer me up.. :) MATH. BLOODY MOOD SWINGS. in dat case, i shall oso give up MATH. GRRRR. test: failed. SURELY la. and he, on e other hand WILL PASS WIF FLYING COLORS who cares? since he was e one who has been treating me as though i m transparent firx WA LIAOS. MUSIC-- disturbing SIYU was fun, tough. upon dimissal. sry aaron, i was in a bad mood. dun take my words to heart... u aint a bully. but ur frend is. ----------------------------- Sunday, August 05, 2007 / 15:22
most probably u juz wann me to believe that u r goneor hated me like hell want me to forget you seriously i had enuff of it u have always been liddat and dat's all rubbish i wouldnt want to hear it anymore. / 00:35
hahas. let me do smth funn!!though u shld have seen it b4 in my previousssssssssss posts. LOL ~~~ Name 21 ppl~~~ 1. Rachel 2. Tingjun 3. Sinnee 4. Vivian 5. Zhangyong 6. Agnes 7. Sijia 8. Aaron 9. Chenhui 10. JuanJun 11. Cuiling 12. SweeJoo 13. Lucinda 14. xuanhao 15. huiqi 16. jerome 17. jayda 18. shuanhock 19. haiyun 20. Swelwin 21. Sinzhi QUESTIONS::: 1. How did i meet 14? ***Erm. In class?? sec1? lols. 2. Wad if u nvr met 6? ***den i would nv have known who she was? -.- 3. Wad if 20 n 9 dated? ***it would be very funny liah. i will laugh my head off. seriously. whole C4 wouldnt believe it too. 4. Did u ever liked 5? ***No. but chenhui always said i did, which was obviously FAKE. we r onli gd frends. hahas. known each other since PRI 1. 5. Wld 4 n 10 make a good couple? ***LOL. i think so. Juanjun and vivian sehys. both have the same burfdays.. wouldnt it be great if they r really together n celebrate deir burfdays togather? 6. Describe 8 ***weird, blur, horny, sick, and lots. i dun think i will finish by today. HAHAS. 7. Do u think 13 is attractive? ***LOL. seriously i dunnno. hadnt seen her ferr a long tym. hahas. 8. Say something about 7. ***SHE loves CATS. one of my best frends too. but she likes to prank on me too. 9. Do u noe anything about 4's family? ***been to vivian's hos b4, but dunno her family weel EXACTLY. 10. Wad is 21's favourite idol? ***DAVID BECKOM. lols. 11. Wad if 18 confessed he liked me? ***that would be the last thing shuanhock will ever do in his life. 12. Wad language does 20 speak? ***el and chi? i aint sure. 13. Who is 9 going out with? ***if i noe, wouldnt it be great? 14. How old is 16 now? ***same as me liah. LOL 15. When is the last time u talked to 12? ***last fri. 16. Wad is 2's favourite band? ***LINKIN PARK?? 17. Would u ever date 10? ***LOLS. dunno? 18. Would u ever date 12? ***NEVER EVER. IMPOSSIBLE. SHE IS A GAL!! 19. Is 15 single? ***lol. shld be ba. but she've got sumone she lyks. (: 20. Wad is 19's last name? ***WANG? 21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11? ***friends? wad else can u expect? 22. Wad sch does 3 go to? ***NANHUA? LOL 23. Where does 17 live? ***LAKESHOME!! rich worx. 24. Wad is your favourite thing about 16? ***nothing. except for he's weird. ----------------------- LOL dis sumwad lame. hais i m looking forward to 080807!! haahs. really. many things will happen, i suppose. and the FINALS of CHEERING COMPETITION!!! (: gathering of C4NIANS TOO. playing of bask wif them ONCE AGAIN!!! hahas. well fine, i would have recovered by den and i M SO GLAD DEN i m feeling much better!!! GOING TO SOFTBALL TML!!! (: LALALALS. Saturday, August 04, 2007 / 17:28
LIJUAN's back after changing to a nice nice blogskinhahas. I LOVE WILDCATS!!! hehes lijuan vry confused. abt the whole thing of ching hang stuff. hais. dunno la. ------------------------------ oh yarr. i AM gonna fail my history test and i m going to broke down soon if i really did. hais... gtg 0 |
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