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Tuesday, March 13, 2007 / 20:38
 what shld i say or do?why m i feelin sad instead of happy? how m i going to continue to live? when will i den be really freed? where will i be found? who m i supposed to trust? haiz. it's over. really over. i told him tt i like another guy. and he believed. and even replied: "i'm so glad she can finaly let go of me" and asked izzit jw. (I PUKE!) he juz dunno. tt i still lyk him. i juz told him on 11feb tt my burfday is over, on 16jan and he believed saying tt my burfday is on 16mar when i asked him out. total freak. get lost. hatred. heartbroken. tears. hurt. would i be givin up so easily after all what i had done? NO. tt's common sense. and he juz dun have it. gth la. slashin myself again? ha. cuz of sum1 like him? bleargh. still nid 2 consider? bullshit. after when he told who he really lyk last yr i almost smiled. stupidly. it was expected. he told me it's over. crap. hu will believe? he asked me to take it easy. will i? he said if i wan, he can oso say tt he liked me b4, askin if i felt better. better? did he have brains? tt will onli make it worse. tt's written convers. not oral noe face to face he, of cuz, dunno my expression, cannot hear my heart shattering into pieces cannot c tt i m cryin like hell after which, he still continue tellin me what's happening in his sch feel lyk stanggling him wun he sense tt i nid to be alone? surely he had been hurt b4 but not like me if onli i did not saw him on MSN on 11feb'07 den maybe for e rest of my life i wun remember him animore or will i? e "scars" left O.o unanswered i may appear strong but tt's wat u see dun judge a bk by its cover i m actually in fact, weak n fragile inside lots of ppl knew it but he juz dun so shld i have joy ehys? or sadness? or maybe even no feelings at all if tt's so, i will be dead den. why does he always hurt me? juz get out of my life, will u? but. can he? NO. i shld'nt have even met him in e first place. tt freak guy. argh. feeling of being lied to. will be bad enuff compared to know e truth. he would not have known waht's happening behind him. unless and it shall- staylike tis 4eva but my lov3 for him will it? uh-uh. dunno e future. i can change it. my fate. depends on everione. my life n death. i control love. beyond my wits.. Labels: darkness.'' |
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