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Monday, October 23, 2006 / 22:17

oh ya.
his burfday, what i heard
is this week, 26/10. and i dunno what to give. really. maybe these stuffs tat he luv coz he told me to, or i have figured out what he meant. by sayin words like :" get away from me" ???
these are the stuffs:
--> nv follow him again
--> ignores him when he is happie wif his crush (well, tat is onli mi guess, so if u r askin me who, i m not goin to tell, unless u noe )
--> give up on him (tat's what he told me. )
but i nv expect things to change on a "beautiful" day
i went to sch, thinkin if i shld really, gave him the 2nd present first. anyway, i have given the 1st one. suddenly, i spooted him outside the gate.. so i nid to slow down mi pace. i always kept wonderin why muz he go to the sch by tat way but not the traffic dere? den, i wun bump into him. the dunno how many times lers. u noe, i'm tryin to avoid we two gettin into the canteen at the same times. once, for the first time, i had a hard time and tat was totally disatrous. really. so he was talkin to his frend and i was tryin to walk slowly.. finally reached canteen.. AnQi and the rest were dere.. eelin asked me to go play basketball with her, so i juz show a weak smile and shook mi head. but then ltr i went to watch wif migin and sijia and the rest lars... then we were dere talkin too.. quite fun. really. back in class, wrappin session continues so watever it is, i tried to avoid him and tat's it. ltr ms fong asks me, sijia and haiyun to put the toys into bags and counted them while the boyz wrap since they were like so free. muahhas. that's probably the use when u have boys in ur grp, u now, i think besides mine and trish grps, there are no other grps of boiz and gals. this is how we formed up: last fri, ms fong mentioned the start of wrappin toys we nid scissors and scotchtape, the 5 of us behind started to say what we have and we dun ahve. i had scotchtape and penknife, yaoxiang had both, zhangyong have scissors, haiyun and haojing have none so we juz like tat formed up while shihui wanna join then sijia juz back from beijing so joined us as well. lawl. once, when i was wrappin the toys, he came behind me and of coz did smth but i juz simply ignored though others gals dere was like callin to me. when AnQi was talkin to me abt QQ story, he came and sumone told me he had smth to say to me so i juz went off wif anQi chasing behind. in the end, he still came and juz said hello bcoz of the thruth and dare they were playin. such a lame one. yoz. then ms fong brought us to com lab. sc told him smth abt me coz i heard sc mentioned' gorilla". tat's what he called me coz he dunno mi name. so chenhui said 'dinosaur". dots. i was relieved tat not accordin to register number but grp der so i dun have to face him one and a half hr lo! who noes, luc and trish were at the com directly oppoite theirs! so, what's the diff??? they were dere talkin nonsense and rubbish coz they finish lers. hais. recess. i went bask but nv shot in once. aiya, nvm... after recess, mdm tan asked chenhui, luc and others not in our mt class der to go up to class wif tj, to take their belongings coz we aren't goin back to class yet. we goin project rm to watch i not stupid too/can we talk? so sijia and i was like. oh. hahas. coz we know what we were both think abt. lawl. durin dere, eelin and i were like writing msgs... and i cried and cried. it was so damn touchin lors! fang too. and others. sum left already coz time up but we wanna watch finish. nowadays, i have became more sensitive. kept cryin. dunno why. hais. den, when we went back to class and packed our bags, yaoxiang told me sumone had read my diary and it was shuwuen. u noe how angry am i? onli sijia can read. she onli and no other else. even haiyun oso nv read b4!!! derx. so i juz went off. wif haiyun, sijia and shihui to mac. i nv play, u noe. onli help tj looked after balls. in case bein stolen or rolled away. but then he came when i was alone but i was listening to MP3 so cannot hear properly. he said smth like " others will think tat i abused you (in chi= nue dai)". i dunno why he said tat. izzit eelin told him the gifts or others or what for heaven sake? so i dun wan to stay dere animore so i juz took mi bag, said bye and went to lib, cryin. at first i tot if i came back quick enuff, maybe still can c him. so i juz went there and back in 40 mins! can u imagine it??? so fast! i ran and ran but when i reached back dere... on the road outside mac, leadin to sch, i saw him. onli. where the heck are the rest? i quickly moved to the other side. i dun think he saw me. u noe. hais. anyway, i got to give him the presents.. realli. this thurs. 2 more days. yeah. 30 more mins i goin jurong point wif sijia. ordered by tingjun to help the class to buy a big teddy bear ( i dunno wht kinda he is talkin) . suggested by him coz i dunno what to buy for mrs yeo's burfday as class gift. (: sure will have fun ltr. lol. hais.. gtg! blog when i have time! (: