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Thursday, August 31, 2006 / 16:17
 HuRt again...hey, it isn't i followed u home, kies? u think i luv it? the road or mrt isn't urs. anione can go if onli u can understand whenever i am feelin down, i go there UNDERSTAND??? and pls stop it. i noe u like her, kies? Now that u noe that i noe, can u pls stop showin it and made it obvious? or u juz wanna do it to make me heartbroken? FINE. then now i tell you, I AM HEARTBROKEN! is that okay?????????? by doing that, it will hurt, noe??? how will u feel if u r me????? let's see then. now both of mi hands got the same cut so i wonder how many will i have by the end of this yr ehx?????? KIES?????????????? Wednesday, August 30, 2006 / 16:57
1: Full Name: Wah Lijuan 2: Name backwardS: naujil haw 3: Were you named after someone?: of coz not... dun even want to! 4: Meaning of name: does it even have a meaning -.- 5: Nickname: jenny wahahahaha lijuan 6: Screen name: what's a screen name? 7: D.O.B: 16.01.1994 (same as jayda! and premjith... yeah!) 8: Place of birth: Mount alvernia Hospital 9: Nationality: Singaporean 10: Current location: jurong west lorx... 11: Star sign: Capricorn! i luv it... 12: Religon: Buddhist... 13: Height: 166cm... (wanna to be 170cm by the end of this yr, so gonna play basketball. hahas.) 14: Weight: ??? sch haven take yet lehx.... 15: Shoe size: female size: 10... (hahas. so big arhx?) 16: Hair color: of coz black lorx.. 17: Eye color: black too. but i would like to see sumone which rainbow colours eye. hahas 18: Who do you look like: ermm. more to daddy 19: Innie or outtie: outtiwe... always not in home derx. 75% lors! 20: Lefty or righty: right... (but sometimes prefer to be a left handed.) 21: Gay, straight, bi or others: Straight of course -.- 22: Best friends: lots larx... one of them is definitley swelwin... 23: Best friends you trust most: swelwin and angeline and val. 24: Favourite pals : lucinda??? 25: Best friend of opposite sex: tingjun??? tzy?? 26: Best buddies: what derx... i dunno??? 27: Boyfriend or girlfriend: ohh. what does this mean? it can mean a lot you know. 28: Crush: lei chenhui lars... 29: Parents: Father and Mother? 30: Worst Enemy: dunno... 31: Favourite online guy: how am i supposed to noe? 32: Favourite online girl: angeline, swelwin, sijia 33: der? no question here? 34: Craziest friend: Jayda!!!she can laugh till she rolls on the floor! 35: Advice friend: swelwin and luc.... 36: Loudest friend: lots!!! 37: Person you cry with: alone. 38: Any sisters: yes, one that is so damn bzbody! 39: Any brothers: nope. hope to have one... so at least i'm not the youngest! always get bullied... :( 40: Any pets: Fishies! i luv them... hahas 41: Any disease: -.- please lorr. 42: Pager: outdated stuff. 43: Personal phone line: handphone lors 44: Cell phone: 96189233 (no calling! lazy to ans... :) ) 45: Lava Lamp: lol? 46: Pool or hot tub: dunno??? 47: A car: yes i want one. i want a black one (: though i learnt in sci that balck absorb more heat.... hahas. but i like tt colour! 48: Your personality: me? crzzy? luvsick? 49: Driving: ??-.- 50: Car you want: haiz... haven even finsh pri sch lors 51: Room: ??? own room harx? 52: Whats missing:MY PRECIOUS DIARY! 53: School: shuqun primary school. 54: Bed: ???? 55: Relationship with parents: quite bad. usually dun care abt their stuffs. 56: Believe in yourself: nope... 57: Believe in love at first sight: er. yes i do. of coz 58: Good listener: yupee. sometimes. 59: Get along well with parents: isn't it the same as the previous question. 60: Save e-mail convos: yupp. 61: Pray: of coz lors 62: Believe in reincarnation: yes. hahax. 63: Make fun of people: oops? sumtimes... 64: Like to talk on the phone: yupp. but always get scolded by sis... :( but i dun care derx lorx 65: Want to get married: ?????????? u say lehx? 66: Like to drive: yupp. of coz. hahas 67: Motion Sickness: wat derx??? 68: Eat stem of broccoli: yea. quite luvin it. 69: Eat chicken with fork: not quite. weird. 70: Dream in color: lavender. sky blue. white , black! 71: Type with your fingers on home role: i don't get it. ??? 72: Sleep with stuff animals: yupp. i gotta lots of baers or soft toys whateva u called that so i had to removed them or else it will be the "toys" who are sleepin, not me! 73: Next to you: my personal stuffs. 74: On the walls of your room: pictures. concept maps. 75: On your mousepad: THE MOUSE? lol what more could be on the mousepad? 76: Dream car: black der lors 77: Dream date: huh? 78: Dream honeymoon spot:DUNNO. 79: Dream husband or wife: u say lehx? 80: Bedtime: very late @ night der worx... 81: Under your bed: nothing except the floor 82: Single most important question: u say lehx? 83: Bad time of the day: when u feel heartbroken? 84: Your worst fear: seperate class/school/seats wif ur luv ones. 85: The weather is: dark cause it's almost night ler 86: Time: ----- 87: Date: 30th of august. 88: Best trick did on someone: ???? 89: Theme song: huh??? sum of these qns are so ridic! 90: Hardest thing about growing up: into the confused relationships world. 91: Funniest experience: okay. when jayda and tj quarellin abt was i talkin to u? 92: Scariest experience: oh man. many too. 93: Silliest thing you have ever said: many too too tooo tooooo 94: Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: none. coz i dun even get the person. hahas 95: Scariest thing while you are with your friends: disater problems struck. 96: Worst feeling: when rejected. or ur crush say u like other ppl or whateva stuff like tt. 97: Best feeling in the world: c him everyday 98: AND NOW, THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!!CHOOSE EIGHT TO DO THE QUIZ!!! hAHAHAHAS !! ------------------------------- coz... erm... i am feelin down now so doing smth silly like this. juz returned from MRT station haiz.... whenever i am feelin down or watsoever, i will either go there or playground but it's kinda raining so onli MRT lors today gotta rehearsal. c4 boiz in the control room then mdm devi said tzy is handsome. then we are all like choking!!! quite well, i think so. then thought lch went home lers but when we went back to class he was like preparing to go home then sort of for luc's sake, he stayed back. nv play basketball coz those carzy fellows went taman jurong cc to play and can u beilieved it??? it is raining! hahas oh btw, i really caught flu. then they played the throwing of bottles and so on larx but i'm not interested at all. already in a lousy mood. so i went out and sat on the stairs.... starin into air... i really felt like cryin, u noe? but whateva for???? lols maybe i KNOW the ans barx... then i went back and sat on haiyun's place they were all @ the fromt gatherin and talkin abt smth then i heard sijia sayin to lch : and u wrote no comments horx. then coz sijia is facing back at me, so she dunno and continuing sayin but lch and others noe and kept quiet then i ask: what have u juz say, sijia? so she was sort of shock so they muz have been talkin abt me lars. haiz then swelwin and angeline came and so on we decorated the classroom then @3pm, lch nid to go lers so i wanted to go MRT to relax so i purposely wait there for abt 5mins then go down i went out. kies. he isn't there so i juz went there lors then when i reached there an mrt train is going so i supposed he is on there then i turned and buy a drink... i stood there for abt 10mins and turned then i saw him i dunno if he saw me or not so i dun care and juz walked to the other side and tt was the last time i saw him. after thinkin that he's gone i went to the toilet haiz.... and i went up to the platfrom wanna go jurong point... on my way home, i was almost knocked down by a car and a bicycle! i really gotta heart attack... phew then saw sijia comin out so we walked home together... ------------------------------- yeah. durin lessons today, tzy and cyx not there b4 recess. hahas but got to help them write their names lors and i and haiyun are breaking free! muahahas durin mt lessons i and tj bet on a chi word in the end, i won! hahas so we were like always there quarrelling hahas btw, i won sijia's bet too abt lch derx lars but not fun at all. really then when we going rehearsal saw lch he asked me to kill miself so now, should i do it??? TODAY... HAHAS
Tuesday, August 29, 2006 / 15:47
yipee!juz came back. and this is the convers of mi and mi mum mum: y u came back so late? thought today no tuition in sch? me: u say lehx... hehex. i played basketball lars mum: wa sehx.... (ANGRY) oh my. i thought she let me play derx? continuing........ mum: raining still play. yoz. later catch flu again me: what derx.... hahas nvrm unicornian flu. can spread. more ppl accompany mi then. School: giving out test paepers... english first hahas then when it came to synthesis Qn 70. we, as in the five of us behind (me+haiyun+haojing+tzy+yaoxiang) all wrote: as a result of his laziness to study, he failed his exams. but the ans is: as a result of his laziness, he failed his exams c the diff? hahas then we aked tzy to go ask and he went to then ms fong says it shld be correct so everione screamed: yeah! in the end, zy came back tellin us that his ears almost went burst. hahas but in the end, tt is not acceptable. haiz math papaer quite a number of us behind problem sums not quite good hahas then tzy pointed out a stupid mistake and all of us went laughing 66.66% round off to one decimal place = 66.67% hahas ans shld be :66.7% then when we show tj, he said he oso got the same mistake MUAHAHAHAHA tt was really funny gd frends= same mistake???? then i oso got one silly mistake. is there such a time of 13.06p.m? PM!!!! hahas Science paper not much things. hahas pooooooooorrrrrrrrrr mi! anione wanna try to sit in front of tzy and beside yaoxiang? i dare u to! tzy went to use his purple pen and wrote "lch" on my shirt! not enuff, tough he still went to make footprints!!! i hate it. worse still, he kept squritin water @@@ me!!!!! so whenever his put his leg up on mi chair, i use mi green pen and poke his shoes heha green spots! so when he put his leg on the other side i turned the opposite way but... he used water to squirt me!!!! so yaoxiang helped him and try to kick mi legs hahas still got haiyun's help hehe but not quite much lars then when the four of us were doin this, i supposed lots of the others are lookin we made sooo much noise lors After school: yipeeeeeeeeeeee. c4 went mac hmm not surprising at all lors.... tingjia oso playin lehx but... she kept being injured... pathetic... haiz then there was once 2 police on patrol even came! hahas kies. not funny at all then unfortunately, tj isn't around haiz but then later he came lars then we are started to play and play and play hahas when i am at mac buyin milo jayda and chenhui and clebin came behind then dunno what fight lars then cleb saw those words " lch" on mi back by tzy so he said: "lch.... oh! lei chen hui!" then i was like totally pissed off. i gonna kill tzy for that!!!!!! no lars jk.... hahas then dunno who on earth went to use his or her finger to write the words on mi back so damn painful lors then bla bla bla :) at 2.30pm, tjs nid to go tjs- tingjun and tingjia hahs so... er no ball @first tj wanna lend derx aiya nvrm lors so others went off too left me+lucinda+trisha+lch in mac so we were like talking most probably, from mi memory, the convers is sumhow like this: -> talking abt houses... *** jayda(to lch): aiya, not like u. live in terrace house ***lch: no lors. mi house is.................. then he was like waitin for the advers on the "TV". there was one tt shows a boy in the toilet and bla bla bla so lch said tt was his house in the end, it was advers on the mac, eat more fruits and veggies (-.-lll)' aiyoz..... then another one shows a mountain. so lch once again say tt was hos house ***luc (to lch): singapore got tt mehx? ***lch: aiya, er... mt.everest lorx. then sumhow tok till bukit timah hill then all of us remembered abt the trip last yr cept' for those who nv go lars then jayda ask***: who's 'mamee' biscuits was tt that the monkey snatched away? ***me: think shld be twj barx.... so jayda asked luc and dunno ask till**: who take the monkey??? hahahahahas so the gal there was like laughing like hell then lch says***: shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aiyoz he same as tj derx lors always wanna go toilet but go to the wrong place then sumhow we practising breaking free then lch said trish always sing "bu xiang zhang da".... what derx suan ppl derx lors hehe actually we were still there bcoz: -> waitin for luc's sis -> dun wan go home so early then lch went to play basketball wif another class derx 2 boix so we requested gal against boiz we used unicornians "pls........." to beg them but no use they aren't tj.... but in the end, we still sllowed to play then halfway thru luc's sis came lerx so she joined us hahas then is like juz now chenhui is guessin the pic of luc's sis he thought she was 'fat" but we said no lors i saw her sis b4.... even today when i was under luc's block waitin for her so in the end when she came she was so pretty then it seemes tt lch "xin bu zai yan" so we said tt he was like tt coz of luc's sis hahas then luc's sis quite tall so we threw high ball then lch said tt we tryin to defeat those shorties which is referrin to them themselves then dunno sumhow lch said smth bad abt us so i was there oh, today is 29/8 9 is an odd number so is the oppposite day!!! say ppl= say themselves muahahas it's quite good tt we unicorn got tt kinda game hehex. then it's gonna rain but when it was drizzling we still playin hahas then the boiz nid to go lers so kies lors we all oso go then it gonna start raining heavily then i saw lch goin so me too lors i ran and ran hoping to catch up wif him but i almost fell phew i dun wan to fall down again! then though i had an umbrella i didn't use it so i ran all the way back to shuqun then i try to search for him but to no avail hahas then after abt there for 10mins i then went home.... hahas so gonna catch flu! "PATHETIC" going to have dinner cz since breakfast, haven eat anythin but drinks only later gastrics i will die liaoz so damn pain de lors hehe still gotta tuition. hahas byeeeeeeeeeeeee Monday, August 28, 2006 / 17:20
hahasobviously i juz returned!!! but from a void deck coz lucinda and i doing the math practice paper together then there was this last qn about circles we both think and think.... till siao and finally got it yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeee but if it is wrong, nvrm at least we gotta try horx???? ----------------------- from 1pm-3.30pm, we playin basketball then somehow eelin's mum came oh my disater struck! haiz. you cannot change fate we shld infrom our parents 1st derx marx..... well. today i am like siao a moment happie and another sad today we gotta the consent form for auition thingy then wed got supp how to??? i m so damn confused! today eelin and tj oso quarrel haiz today i m sad is coz sumtimes lch keep ignoring me haiz then when sijia ask if izzit that i am sad then i say u say lehx? so he started sayin all kinds of rubbish then he came and say what be frends. oh well. he wanna us to be frends arhx? okay lors better than nth.... but pls i will still continue to luv him foreva muahahahas then today he borrowed $$$ from mi again. oh well. @ 1st is $2 then add another 20cents hahas but i dun have 20cents onli $2 oh well then he give me back the change lors hahas then when we are playin basketball i said to miself tt lch is so cute then haiyun heard it soon, everione noe so i ran to the toilet hehehehehehex then today he kept callin me.... argh... what's more, if my actual full name i hate that is juz like mt lessons always like that oh ya mi results out so damn lousy! EL-> bk a-24/30 bk b- 46/65 total-70/95 Math-> 89.5/100 Sci-> bk a-54/60 bk b-30/40 total-84/100 MT-> bk a-43/50 bk b-39/40 (yipee.. highest) total-90/100 haiz. c??? so damn lousy today swelwin cried lehx sobby i really feel so helpless and we are still in our examinations seating format veri diff to see him haha -------------------------- aniway today ms fong's isn't here haiz but got lots of hw Mt oso weird......... yipeeeeeeeeee congratulate me today i woke up @ 7.05a.m ("very early") horx? then i ran and ran almost get knocked down by a car hahas and reached sch @7.15a.m saw luc and ys so i apologised. hahas gtg bye YoZ! hahas
Sunday, August 27, 2006 / 17:06
is the song nice?hehes oh my. tomolo we r going to school yeah can c him lers i think this week is gonna be a bz week for me.... tomolo: got to face up to the newsflash again, go thru tests papers in class, gonna basketball coz supp cancelled. (yeah!) tuesday: most probably stayed back, basketball, or do i have supp??? i forget aiya, everything i dun care derx coz i am like stayin back everyday lors, tuition wed: maybe there will be a rehearsal for the day after's concert, i think there will be supp too, and most probably no supp thurs: gonna finish folding the cranes for ms toh, and got to find a time to give mrs yeo her present, nid to stay back and perfrom for the pri 1 and 2, definitely going basketball fri: tuition, going out wif frends. haiz... you see? and now i stilll haven do the teacher's day card thingy no one help me :( haiz and most probably tomolo, smth either good or bad will happen, arhx? maybe mi results dropped like hell oh well. then tt's it i gonna die if tt's the case i will be hack into pieces! but i already tried mi best to forget him and study well lors ----------------- today went tuition wif luc, shihui then is like everitime our ans all the same. nope i should say the marks so we are often like.... aiya. (translated from CL to EL) teacher: wa, all three the same me: cannot mehx? teacher: huh? gl: she says cannot mehx? then is like this tuition always got lots of laughter de lors 4 from shuqun, and 4 from other schs. me+shihui+lucinda+guoliang+de wei+weiting+jian fu+weiquan hahahahahas then jianfu is the "craziest" and "hl" ppl today when teacher wanna us to translate chi into el,he ask gl to coz he says gl eng veri good then gl dunno then when teacher say jianfu is a "hl" boy gl say: haolian the rest of us too so teacher say: u see? i told u. i said gl's eng veri good derx so all of us burst out laughing and coz we played games then acculumated marks so we got biscuits :) each person 9 packets oh my. gonna eat like siao hahas still got sum left b4 derx so many last yr oso like this except for compo class larx then it let mi reminded of james. hahas ------------------------ i luv c4 as a class, really and u noe what's our favz lessons? rated 1st: free time 2nd: relieve teacher 3rd: grp work 4th: P.E 5th: art coz normally durin art, teacher hack care derx we can talk! haha the games of boiz and gal we had from last yr till now: -> reversi catching -> hide and seek in A block -> chess -> ice and freeze -> waterfight -> kicking fight -> basketball -> volleyball -> captain ball -> truth or dare -> opposite days -> copying game and lots.......................... hahas last yr grps: -> aries ->ursr major ->delphinus -> aquaila ->unicorn hahas then the truth or dare,opposite days and copying game are started by unicorns which is me+haiyun+sijia+shihui+jayda+wanxin+tingjun+alvis hehehex oh ya still got the 'was i toking to you' game by jayda and tj. muahahahahas uni- me, haiyun, jayda, sijia corns- wanxin, shihui, tingjun, alvis and our grp are the one who play, think most i can still remember there is once abt a math qn volume we debate like hell lorx even mrs yeo are confused by us. c4 luv: -> basketball -> jokes -> free timez -> toilet break -> when there is no teacher -> after sch c4 hates: -> troubles -> exams c the connection? hahas --------------------- i bet we r gonna cry when we r going to seperate u noe how tt hurt? especially when u have a loved one but he or she dun like u and u two are gonna seperate and cannot c each other animore well keeep in touch then maybe we going to have a c4 gathering years later u wun even noe. so we muz treasure this yr, yeah? HaPpIe TiMeZ!
Saturday, August 26, 2006 / 18:58
preciselyas for now i am like crazy and over the moon can u believe it? juz 1 msg i already became like this! OMG hahahahaha today i went jurong point. alone veri pathetic lors coz gina's mummy dun allow swelwin is havin family outing luc, haiyun+sijia going tuition haiz so i went there with mi mp3 stuck in my ears all along at first, i sms mrs yeo, asking her if she will be coming back on thurs so can give her present what... then i veri bored i tried to call james's hp number and it went through so i immediately hung up i dunno if he changed or use back the old one so i juz sms him: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! after abt 5 mins, 1 msg received i thought it was mrs yeo but when i opened it, it was.... JAMES!!!!!!!!! he replied: thanks. so, i was like, omg. although i still sensed tt he's still angry but he replied! i already happie like hell so i sms back, do u still noe hu am i? but he didn't reply lers. well, tt's enuff. coz in the past, i tired to sms him, he nv reply.... so i long time never try till now.... his birthday today OH YEAH!!!!! so i went there tryin to find a birthday present 4 him' actually, yesterday i wanna go his house derx but held up by basketball... but i juz cannot find one all not suitable ders well. nvrm then so i came back not buyin one i went there to buy teacher's day presents.... hahas now, you see.... i am already confused in my own world nope should be own luv world it juz seemed tt i cannot forget james ehx? i knew he hate mi..... but i hoped tt we can still be frens heard tt he going to chalet too well. see barx :) so now.... JAMES OR CHENHUI??? hahas i'm left wif no choice but to do this....
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haiz...i have juz woken up. and saw 3 msgs. 2 from tzy, 1 from migin yesterday night juz when i were gonna sleep but cannot fell asleep tzy sms me last time oso like this i wonder his had done prediction... hahas always sms me st the correct timing. :) then from abt 10pm++++ sms till 11pm+++ i veri pro sms till fell asleep so today juz read the msg from him tt he is gonna sleep. hahahahas sorrie worx... he's quite a nice guy, actually. but pls... i onli took him as a frend :) 2 gals from mi class like him but he likes our class monitress but class monitress already got a stead haiz pathetic then but, no choice luv cannot be ordered so yesterday me and tzy are like smsing abt luv hahas. he is quite a trustworthy guy, i could say..... oh ya. today is our class ex-monitor's birthday "HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!" hahahahahas really. now i have no mood to tok abt luv relationships haiz.... u think should i give up on chenhui? maybe i should oh well then. i already make up my mind haiz the whole of class gonna talk abt it on this mon, i think. and tat's the best. but i'm afraid tt mi best frend will scold me if they were the last to noe gosh then nvm. at least we can onli talk abt tt kind of stuff durin mt lesson worse still, tj was juz beside me except for a big space in between but i'm afraid toilet break durin ms fong's lessons they will talk abt it aiYa i really dunno lars juz let the nature take its course so now i m wondering how will chenhui reacts? a) happie- coz less a person to cause trouble for him? haiz. can't think of more. but aniway tt's mi choice so no one can change it. but there will be backstabbers and i noe who will they be i hate them. realli i do. they will try to create sum nonsense to make things worse for me i noe derx but i still gonna face it coz tt is onli a matter of times tt i gonna do that ------------------------ oh my. we're going to get back our prelims results on mon! i think tt i will do badly barx but i already tried mi best nth can be done to help it. wat's done cannot be undone get it??????? but we still havin a prelim 2 which is not gonna have ani weightage in our report book tt's cool, then hahas actually, exams r to test if we did pay attention in class and get the concept right. so... aiYa we c4 veri pro derx u see, this whole week prelim, everiday afer sch still play basketball... wanna us die izzit? but we are still alive yeah heard tt we r gonna to have supplementry durin sept sch hoildays so we will be quite bz in sept as well as PSLE comin -------------------- hey, pls take note tt i gonna change 5c4 blog to 6c4 blog! hahas so it will be easier to post things up i will do things asap. ------------------- teacher's day comin gonna but things we got in the audition afterall so we r gonna perform thrice yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hahas so now i still gonna help c4 to do a teacher's day card for every single teacher tt taught us hahas gtg byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Friday, August 25, 2006 / 22:14
yoz!i am back... hahas now typin this+msging tzy and lucinda.... hehex. juz changed blogskin. everiday change derx. hehehehe today after sch, luc said lch not going mac today but in the end, he still went thought he had tuition??? well, nvrm. i oso have marx. toking craps here. mi tuition@ 6.30pm lors hahahahhahahahahahahahahahaha then i owe htj coke.... so i buy one for him lors then tj says if i dun buy for lch, i ....... i nv hear properly aniway i still buy but then tt's the prob i gave tj his and placed lch's on a table then i thought he will take but when we are playin, he said i biased nv buy for him but for tj so i tell him i placed on the table so he went in mac to confirm but it isn't there maybe sumone else take it so in the end, i went to buy another one and told shuwuen and wanxin help me put @ his bag there hahas then i went to play he went to drink then he tried to aim the ball, puttin the coke on the ground then angie and they all went to kick it. after realisin tat i WAS the one who bought it, they started tokin craps again!!!! haiz.... then i nid to go lers coz stil gotta tuition hw haven do. then lch too so we walked the same way lors then he ask me tat he was wondering wat i put in the coke. he is dizzy and gonna faint so i say if he's dead, got to c the real death cert. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA then on the road, we are like quarellin yes, no or opposite lars haiz.... but when i was alone lookin @ the sky, the ski is so damn beautiful.... but i gonna give him up. aiya i veri confused actually oso no mood ders / 15:35
back from mac again....haiz. this whole world is freakin me out.....!!!!@@@@@@@@@@ juz reached home. today in class take the exam... hehex:) between 9.05pm-10.25pm we can play diao siao... so i and eelin play the "hit hand" thingy hahas. our hand red like hell then eelin wanna the CD so i went to ask tj but he said is alan's derx hai wo zou qu! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aiya i dun wanna post lers. no mood Thursday, August 24, 2006 / 18:05
well...today, i run into the gal again. juz now... our conversation: ~da gurl~: oh, hi... now i am really in a super disatrous and confused mood... me: huh? why? ~da gurl~: becoz.... haiz. i am really tired out. more and more ppl joining in our "luv' game... and i gotta a feelin tat he likes the new gal in it.... me: haiz.. dun tell me u r gonna do tat again????? ~da gurl~: u say lehx??? i realli dunooo.... is juz coz of communication gaps and we dun even understand each other... me: well... haiz... ~da gurl~: do u think i should end mi place in the game???? me: well, i realli dunno... it is ur own choice. ~da gurl~: haiz. but i am really... haiz... this whole world is freakin me out... i dunno his thoughts... the onli thing i can do is to back out the game me: then how? u will be feelin miserable, u noe? ~da gurl~: if i dun do tat, i will be worse! at most, juz continue to luv him in the dark lor me: {speechless} ~da gurl~: i can onli bless him and whoever he likes... coz nth i do will help what... (then all of a sudden, the gurl started to cry) haiz... u see, luv is like tat derx!!!!!!!!! i hate it!!!!!!!!!! today.... :)
Wednesday, August 23, 2006 / 16:31
well, typin this weird posts... dunno y blogger suddenly became like this lehx...today mt paper 2 quite diff... paper 1 too haiz... so many dunno how to do... so i oso wonder if he know how to do too... so, today is whole day in hall... monday oso i wonder this fri lehx? let's hope tomolo all ms fong's lessons tomolo is sci paper nid to memorize till siao but actually, noe the concept kies liao larx dun care so much... well, now i m typin post which means, i juz return from basketball court. and pls, after bathing coz i stinks. hahas today somehow actually i quite happie mood derx then bacame sad mood then back to happie mood till now confused mood you see? haiz... so today @ mac, coz realy not place lerx so gotta no choice but to put my bag near his but pls horx, @ least got a huge gap in between! :) then after tat, i became suddenly weird, and sad. i really dunno y so i sat on the hard, burnt floor, watching them playin for abt half-an-hour. i even feel like cryin but... what for??? you see, now i am an insane person!!! er... who am i??? kies. enuff abt tat stupid thingy. can i ask u a qn??? i going ppl's house=childish??? no write??? hmph. dun tok abt tat animore.... or else i will... aiya, dunno what larx. hehex then later i go join them playin basketball :) so happie mood lers. then the boiz went to buy some drinks' so left the gals. so we seperate us into grps me+haiyun+sijia(as usual)+eelin+wanxin+binbin+harriet= 1 grp lucinda+shihui+trisha+gina+angie+shuwuen = 1 grp then dunno who nid to go lerx so mi grp less ppl then the boiz came back. tj juz said they two joining haiyun's grp but dunno who is in it so he went to snatch the ball from mi WHAT DERX! snatch from own team members! so he realised afterall i AM his team members so he threw the ball back to mi then i threw back, he threw here, and i threw back again. then the others are like watching so i juz like argh and threw to haiyun :) yeah! before the boiz joined, we grp leading. 6:0! then sum from grp 2 nid to go so tj and lch joined them then we lesser so tj said he wanted join grp 2 and ask lch to join ours so lch juz say: i want to be in the opposite team to oppose jenny and he really does kept blockin me hmph. hehe though he can jump high, but i am still taller :) muahahahahas then tj say 3pm he nid to go lerx left 10mins so we all went in as well larx then i dun dare go mi bag there but in the end still nid what but i nid to borrow gins's hp to call ms koy to confirmed shuwuen's tuition yipeeeeeeeeee hahas!!!!!!!!! then mi flie of entries on mi table they tryin to snatch so i got to placed in mi bag on a SUPER safe place so no one can take it :) then lch came behind me askin me y i nv treat him drink but treat tj. huh? got mehx? so i ask him where got then tj said: no larx, is cheeseburger. then i was there like: AIYO... food is NOT equal to drink!!!!! even if i wanna treat him i m afraid he dun wan it hahas like last time the gals dun wan the cheeseburger but tj wants then i give to him larx!!!! then tj say: ooo, u see. got ppl jealous liaox. hEy! say tat agin i will published ur home addie on mi bloG!!!!" i thought hahahahahahahahaha then i went back tokin to shuwuen abt tuition then i heard lch askin who can lend him 5cents then i thought juz now i bought milo got the chnage of exactly 5cents i told shuwuen to give him but dun tell it's mi or else i will tell ms koy abt.......... (cannot reveal). hahas then chenhui and tj nid to go. sijia ask mi if i wanna go so i juz say after they go then go larx so dunno what happen to shuwuen abt lch shuwuen ask every gal there to hit lch tomolo then she ask me to but then the sijia went to tell her i won't be tat heartless. hey!!!!! hahas so mi and sijia went home together i was wonderin where the boiz were... then suddenly saw them sijia kept askin where, where, where so i kept tellin there, there, there!!! tj is dribbling his ball on the road while chenhui is going to mrt. so i ask sijia, wanna follow? but sijia says tomolo coz his father pickin her up. kies lorx... so i watch helplessly as the sight of him faded and finally. disappeared. then i and sijia saw tj bouncin the ball and it went into the drain! hahas Monday, August 21, 2006 / 17:05
Haiz… now mi file of all those entries is wif Lucinda…Haiz. I really cannot imagine those tat I wrote!!! Really… In the past, all of them is abt james till 04/04/2006. hehe I really missed those memories, as in not james derx la… him. U should noe what I mean… So I was there reading, laughin then mi sis thought I crazy… When I was reading them, those pictures of scenarios came floatin into my mind of what happen Haiz… if onli I had not confessed, arhx??? But… he semmed to get it Vis says derx By guessin larx. Then yesterday Lucinda and I after tuition were like gonna crazy all the way back home Kept laughin… MUAHAHAHA I think tat I am goin to his house this fri wif mi frendz I hope if I ask him to go, will he? I am sure not. Hahaz Anyway, I haven say thx / 16:39
well... today's el not quite diff larx... 25%...hehex. tomolo=MATH!!! and now i still not revisin... haiz. today i so damn pathetic... haiz. EXAMS IN HALL LEHX!!! I DUN WAN! cannot c him lehx... onli when i walked pass him larx coz i sit sssssssoooooooooooooo front!!! then everytime i passed, he will laugh or say dunno whateva it is barely audioable worse still, today whole day in class!!! sobby look then recess oso cannot find him... onli after school, preparin 4 audition he had his lunch then went out of gate. i watched him... at 2nd floor to mi surprise, he went to mac!!! so, immediately, i was like so damn happy, askin the others if it will be ok if we go mac after audition. THEY SAID OK!!!! hehex. as for audition, we were the last class! haiz... ANGIE CAN BE A SUPERSTAR! her singing= super gd lorx then there were 3 groups, including us singing breaking free but so far, ours is the best we have confidence tat we will get in :) so after that, we all went to mac when i reached there, onli galz there they said bois had juz went home! OH MY GOD! i am juz late by dunno somehow a few minutes!!!!!! argH! can't they stay a little longer??? sobby... sob sob sob... u see??? we aren't fated. perhaps barx... haiz... so i left mac immediately after havin lunch... :( Sunday, August 20, 2006 / 15:25
although today is 19 of aug, but i changed the date coz dunno y if 2 posts posted @ same day will be deleted. haiz. can onli update when mi sis not @ home or we will fight for com... i juz knew smth. i dunno y she did tat. it was juz a casual remark abt the tuition, what on earth she went to tell the teacher? in the end, i get a scolding... actually, when mi teacher mention it yesterday, she onli say u noe who u r. then i dunno till today tat the person is me. is the gal purposely went to tell derx juz coz she viewed us as luv rivals? well, come on. still dun nid to do tat right???argh.... this is definitely driving me crazy!nv, what's done cannot be undone. forget abt it lars. haiz... let me calm down first. hahas. now i really dunno what to do, as in lots of things. is prelim 1 counted??? lots of them say not lehx..... but i dunno!! Saturday, August 19, 2006 / 17:36
HELP ME.THIS WHOLE WORLD IS FREAKING ME OUT REALLY. I WANNA WISH TO DIE! BUT LUC GIVES ME A REASON NOT TO: LCH haiz.... EXAMS ARE COMIN YET THESE PROB ARE TOO... HOW???? HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO COPE TO?? THIS YEAR-PSLE LEHX! YOU SEE??? HAIZ... CAN I END MY LIFE??? I EVEN RATHER WISH TO GIVE UP ON HIM BEFORE I DIE.... HAIZ / 13:30
haiz...fear. scared. afraid. haiz... my parents quarrel everyday haiz... sumone pls help mi!!! gonna die soon hahas. mi sis told me tat dunno there is sumone predicted tat all of us r going to die next yr india will start world war 3 or singapore will be flooded. so muz treasure this yr but i m not so superstitious de larx but i reasure this yr coz this is mi last pri yr and my last yr to see the person whom i like and luv dearly. but the rest is all up to fate if we r gonna meet again. but i really hope so... there's a scar on my hand made in this year to let me remember tat i once noe of a guy named lei chenhui before haha stupid, isn't it. but luv is like tat derx.... now i am really very confused lehx.. prelim 1 no weightage??? haiz nvrm. dun think so much. it wun help derx all mi frends are like heck care not even studying for them lehx except for a few, i suppose. haiz... my mummy, as in in sch derx, migin larx dun even noe me well... abt what is hapening to me and so on. yoz...... but, for once, let me have a chance to clarify sumthing wif u: NOW, I DUN LIKE OR LUV JAMES LUA ANIMORE. CHENHUI IS THE ONLY PPL IN MY HEART!!! haiz... i am sayin this coz there are lots of misunderstanding and once again, those ppl in group 1 and 2 dunno what is ha[[ening in grp 3 and 4 so they are like there kept askin' aiyo.... audition comin but i dun think i wanna go how? i dun even noe what r we gonna do lehx u noe? and the day after is our math test lehx!!!! weirdo. Friday, August 18, 2006 / 22:36
hehexguess wat???? i am already decided. really.... juz now when i m gonna study for my el prelim which is coming up this mon suddenly my mind went blank i dunno wat to revise for it!!!! so i sms mrs yeo, my ex form teacher.... she replied: grammar and synthesis. then dunno why all of a sudden i realised tat i did feel stress at the end. really so i juz went tellin her coz i think it will be okay. so i onli tell her: i noe is juz tat i cannot let go.... she replies: coz u r not focused animore. be careful. so i say:................................ u expect me to tell the truth? is juz bcoz of relationships..... haiz lorx. then she woke me up. prelims comin and i nid to work harder then i remembered wat lch tell me to do: be a good gal and pass ur exams wif flyin colours. then i really dun wan to disappoint both of them. so, now onwards, i decided to work harder! thx to the both of them.but so far, i onli thanked mrs yeo so i was tellin luc there i may be leaving a note sayin: thx onli. and leaving him to guess who izzit then i noe 4 sure the rubbish bin will have smth more to eat coz he is definitely gonna tear it, and threw it. i guessed la. then luc say tat of coz he knew is me then i ask her y she said coz of the handwritin and he oso noe i like him marx.... but horx won't he will be there like what eva the thank is for????? hehehehahahahaha then i was like there: hmm... lch told luc b4 tat he juz nid to tolerate 1+1/2 mth not to: msn, say relationships, and what so eva. yeah. me too, probably. two more mth although as 4 relationships prob juz dun go over the limit like b4 after psle kies le lars. but aniway he isn't stayin overnight. going onli. siobby. haha.... i really dunno y horx, he dun wan to stay welll, nvrm then i got to revise and revise and revise. hahas byeee gtg / 16:17
haiz....sumtimes, i really dunno what on erath am i doing or thinkin it juz seemed tat i am a little bit out of control as in exams comin, still on com type blog, thinkin of him, nv revise and so on.......... haiz. enuff abt tat. got tired of it when all the children on earth get to hear the same thing from their mums.... --------------------- today psle oral finally came to an end! yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee can throw away all those oral stuffs. quite okay lars, actually.... not tooo diff not toooo easy too hahaha. (-.-lll) lame ---------------------- after oral, i went to locker to put math 2... saw gardener there :) so we chattin.... then suddenly remembered abt basketball.... so i juz say byeee and ran off saw harriet there at the gate then after haiyun came out we went together at first, he not there so i quite disappointed cos still got tomolo and sun cannot c him lehx worse still lorx haiz then when i playin basketball..... after abt 5 mins, he appeared! so i was like so damn happie haha then i went in to buy a drink and watch c cluster internal match hehe overall, i can onli figure out: chenhui+tj+ridzuan (iziit spelled like this?)+agl+zavier=1 grp then dunno what lers so i kept cheerin, seeing so my frend ask me y i like to see basketball match sooooooooo much actually i dunno but all of a sudden i cannot find him! he's gone... i ran up down turned my head everywhere but he is juz not there! or izzit tat the juz now him was juz mi imagination??? nope it couldn't be!!! so i sat there waitin, searching for abt 2hrs then he really not there so went to playground wif sijia then luc+trisha and 4 c3gals join so we play then go home i ask luc: do u agree tat boys nv knows what are galz thinkiin and vice versa? she says: onli pretend not too. except for u larx, maybe hmm.... really.... haizgtg byee Thursday, August 17, 2006 / 15:09
hehex today oral quite okay larx i was the first one to be tested!!! everytime me first derx. why harx? weird then when i went down, onli chenhui is the c4 there so i m there like waitin for others we were held there coz smth happen i think so then clara, haiyun the rest started to come down oh yeah after a while we were set free hahahahaha then outside, we planned to wait for the rest then suddenly lch asked if we knew our marks and r we goin to mac later to play basketball how come i dunno? weird. so we juz say yes then finally the first half ppl came out hahaz slower than us then most of the c4 stramed pass the traffic and then to mac' then me and angie and sijia walked the other a close shave to be bein hit by the car yoz hahaz then we play play play then sing sing sing haha then sijia made me angry sayin tat i nv concentrate on singin kept lookin@ lch so i can do nth play, they say biased sing, they say i nv concentrate haiz so i juz sat there on the hard, burnt gorund watchin them then the rest went to play then i joined in lorx then i shot in one ball then the score became 20:2 instead of 20:0 then lch kept askin me why muz i throw in can't juz let them get zero? erhhhhhhhhhhhhh pls lorx mi grp lehx then once i and him fight for ball kept hittin each other haiz then he dunno say what thing larx i nv listen..... haiz -------------------------------------------------------------------------- tomolo we not the same halves lehx aiya nvm anyway i will still be the first one to be tested and he still nid to be held in the hall hehe
/ 14:20
hehextoday oral quite okay larx i was the first one to be tested!!! everytime me first derx. why harx? weird then when i went down, onli chenhui is the c4 there so i m there like waitin for others we were held there coz smth happen i think so then clara, haiyun the rest started to come down oh yeah after a while we were set free hahahahaha then outside, we planned to wait for the rest then suddenly lch asked if we knew our marks and r we goin to mac later to play basketball how come i dunno? weird. so we juz say yes then finally the first half ppl came out hahaz slower than us then most of the c4 stramed pass the traffic and then to mac' then me and angie and sijia walked the other a close shave to be bein hit by the car yoz hahaz then we play play play then sing sing sing haha then sijia made me angry sayin tat i nv concentrate on singin kept lookin@ lch so i can do nth play, they say biased sing, they say i nv concentrate haiz so i juz sat there on the hard, burnt gorund watchin them then the rest went to play then i joined in lorx then i shot in one ball then the score became 20:2 instead of 20:0 then lch kept askin me why muz i throw in can't juz let them get zero? erhhhhhhhhhhhhh pls lorx mi grp lehx then once i and him fight for ball kept hittin each other haiz then he dunno say what thing larx i nv listen..... haiz -------------------------------------------------------------------------- tomolo we not the same halves lehx aiya nvm anyway i will still be the first one to be tested and he still nid to be held in the hall hehe Wednesday, August 16, 2006 / 18:37
haiz....so, my conclusion: is the fake one..... but... haiz. nvrm then i am like =hack care...... gosh! juz now me and sijia walkin home saw MS FONG!!! then we quickly wanna walked away but dunno where to. here, there, here, there aiyoz... then think she spotted us barx.... we actually wanna stay in sch to practice the song... for audition but got prelim so maybe not goin me+jayda+trisha+sijia=high angie+harriet+haiyun+lucinda=low hehe.... but then later they all goin mac.... coz sch no place then b4 tat, in class, i thiught lch+shuwuen+gina+wanxin goin there tooo? to play basketball? but then why when me+angie+sijia+binbin+jayda reached there, lch is gone? weird. definitely.aiyoz i soooooooooooooooooooo long nvr post sure got lots of things to say but, aiya.... forget it!!! u noe what??? tomolo PSLE oral!!! (-.-))".... scared!!!! haiz.... yipee! mi sis came home!!!! my sis bought smth 4 me.... ewww........ not goodie at all.... haha well, on mon, lch kept turnin when i look @ him but yesterday only twice then today worse.... when he turned, he wil say smth.... then is was like.... shuwuen they all kept tellin him smth then he purposely turned to c me.... then worse still, after sch, i mean after supp larx shuwuen said i lost till like hell coz b4 supp, i bet wif lucinda tat he wun turned around durin supp.... then he came askin me is tat game fun? of coz as usual i went all red in my face then he ask if i wanna play tat everyday.... argh! then sum dunno, kept askin me what game..... then they all pulled me.... here and there then is is so painful!!! haiz... i am no match for them then dunno who say let her go then i am free!!!! yeah hahas haiz. cannot c him lehx tomolo+fri+sat+sun y muz be on thurs and fri? cannot sat and sun? so i can c him... hehe gtg byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Sunday, August 13, 2006 / 16:27
well...after all, i still start to write daries again... coz i juz cannot help it... toooo many things tat make me worry and sick.... haiz... after deciding if i should write this, i finally decided to. yesterday, on msn, boiz (cannot write out the name, sorry) ask me: u want lch's email? me: ya him: how abt this??? ......................................... he wanna me to buy it from him.... then stright after giving me the email, he offline and "chenhui" online... "chenhui": who r u? me: u say lehx? "chenhui": oh my god. who give u derx? me: cannot tell u "chenhui":i noe, is the (boiz) me: nope. i dun even noe him (Bluff) "chenhui": y do u like me so much? me: i dunno... (weird...) "chenhui": actually.... me: what? "chenhui": i like u a little... (i now noe tat 90% is not him) me:er... wait. u sure u r lch??? "chenhui": i not lch me: then? "chenhui": i m lch la... lame la "chenhui": what hw we got??? before i can finish, my sis came in and turned off the com.... now i so damn confused dunno who the person is... so when i sms the (BOIZ), he said is not him, is the real lach.... i used lots of ways but he kept sayin is the real one.... haiz after yesterday, i have never ever seen "chenhui" online again. today when i went tuition, i told shihui the summary but not the whole thing or else the whole class will eventuallt noe... and what if the person IS lch??? if the person happen to be the fake one, onli the real one can help me... but i noe he wun... is my stupidness to believe rite??? but at least i did try. no matter what, i m willin to pay any price juz 4 anythin abt him... tomolo got el & mt listening lehx... i hate exams! and i think i will be in the boix section again... haiz c 4 myself tomolo if the person is fake or real... haiz byeee Saturday, August 12, 2006 / 23:00
haiz....OH YEAH!!! NEW MP3 BUT HP GET CONFISCATED COZ I SENT OVER 1300+++ MSG!!! $$$80++++!!!! haiz................... / 13:47
yoz...i got confused all over... hmm... i gotta his addy from sumone but dunno is really him or not lehx maybe is the "sumone" create derx juz to trick me... ARGH! I AM SO DAMN CONFUSED!!! Friday, August 11, 2006 / 20:49
haiz...today durin art lesson, i was always super pathetic 1. got footprints of tzy 2. get squired by him 3. my poor pencil case and water bottle!!!! YOU SEE??? haiz today he finally came and tok to me.... but i was also very sad HAPPY: he came here to borrow the list of the psle oral thingy SAD: HE KEPT SAYIN ME & YAOXIANG!!!!! OVER MY DEAD BODY I WILL LIKE YAOXIANG THAN TO LOVE HIM!!!!! IT IS EVER EVER IMPOSSIBLE!! haiz... i really dunno if he is jealous of me always "playin" wif boiz there OR juz happy coz he had got rid of me??? haiz... then swelwin ask him to pass my pen to me, he did... so now i was like keep using the pen... (MAD) haha i am sooooooo confused. worse to worse, pe, i was forced to stand near him well, nvm. PE only. is a lesson!!! haha. but i juz can't concentrate so causin lucinda to pick up the ball so many times coz i got some math qns dunno, (tuition derx la) then i ask shuwuen help me do in pencil coz she is in the same tution wif me but diff venue and timing after sch, she came tellin me tat she found a super good person who can help me do i ask her who she ask me to c who in their grp is doin smth now then i thought is lucinda so when i swept the floor, i saw smth was wrong! is not lucinda, but.... LEICHENHUI!!!!!! then i juz shouted: whey! y u ask him to.... then he knew smth was wrong wif the book, so he turned to the bk cover and saw my name sticker on it he immediately stopped doing and closed the bk. i said: throw it here and he did:) juz came back from tuition he helped me do derx 2 sums all correct lehx! gosh... HE SO PRO!!! hehe prasing him... is my best shot. no la, jk.... today after sch, i saw him goin to mac but then there was the stupid thingy which spoilt everythin causing me not to spend time wif him.... SOBBY!!!!!!!!!!!! so in the end, we played captain ball. me+tj+jayda+alan+binbin+harriet+shuwuen+sijia=1 team eelin+migin+afiqah+haiyun+zhouhui+shihui+angie=1 team haha then i was not focusing so i sprained my ankle in the end! cannot even walked properly lorx! so we went back to sch in class all tokin abt the chalet thingy then alan went off left pathetic tj onli boy what then in class, i kept smsing him in silence. onli shuwuen noe. i asked sijia to write down tj's address then tj went to say out everythin tat me and luc follow him home... then we went down playin volleyball not fun at all so we moved on the captain ball my leg hurts so at first i m the refree haiyun+sijia+wanxin+jayda=1 grp binbin+shuwuen+angie+tj=1 grp but later angie dun wan play so i, binbin, tj and shuwuen = 1 team lorx we won... yeah but horx... tj throwin super lan!!! hahahaha haiz... then after @ abt 4.30pm, we went home i+sijia+tj walked the same way then tj ask y muz we walked here this is not his road, kies? argh........... then on my way home near tj block, saw LOTS OF DEAD COCKROACH! so, i juz went :"yucks, eew!yeeks!" and lots on my way home.... MUAHAHAHAHA bb signing off.... Wednesday, August 09, 2006 / 22:48
 haiz... u noe what??? this pic is supposed to be a penguin being animated, heartbroken, tryin to dunk itself by drinkin wine and smoke cigarettes to forget all its troubles and sorrows.... if only i can do it even if i can i dun even want to. smoking = stinks + bad for health lo... i juz found out smth tat i had saved in my hp... MSG : u will never ever noe how i feel abt u... no matter what, i will still continue to luv u forever. i m willin to sacrifice everythin 4 u, includin my life.. but i juz got a feelin tat u dun care abt anythin or even the story. not at all. y muz i drown instaed of continuing the story? have i done smth wrong? if yes, u should tell me! i did not say tat i m always right... whenever i get to c u in sch, u will always brighten up my life in many ways... so, it seem tat u r one of the most important person in my lfe... i think tat i cannot do without you but the choice is not mine but urs... u will never noe how much i have suffered in silence coz of u, and i oso dunno if u did tat too. luv is smth tat cannot be forced... it goes by the natural course... u r always on my mind even at night.. ur momentary smile on ur face made my day better.. i really wish to see u everyday, but unfortunately, i can't. or.. can i??? i noe tat for sure u will never ever like me, but tat doesn't mean tat i ought to give up. did u noe tat whenever u mention me and another boy together, i feel tat u r juz tryin to avoid everythin and u dun even care abt my luv for u... luv someone is to give them happiness, u noe? haiz... tough u always break my heart, and although i had amended it back, but still there will be tiny shattered pieces left behind being unfound... i only want to spent time with u, but it juz seem tat there are obstacles between us, or not? i always wish to get near u, but i juz dun have the courage to... i tried everyway to be beside u most of the time, (eg, after sch playin basketball). but whenever u left, far far away, i can onli see the back shadow of euu... after which, i had no more interest in anythin, and seem to get lost in everythin, as my mind was all filled abt you.... if u onli like me juz to fufil my wish, i rather not... tat will be worse than fufilling my wish, to me... i will always wish upon the stars to c u.... memories of u and me are being left behind... but i will always try to pick them up.. :) i will never ever forgte u, NEVER! --- end of msg--- well long enuff, isn't it? haiz.. now tzy is the onli c4 online so can onli tok to him actually he quite good i mean as a frend la, pls i have known him for 6 yrs together with trisha, weijie, terence... haiz. u noe what? sometime i really wish tat i had not even exist in this world, so i wun have: --> family problems --> relationships priblem --> frendship problems --> sch problem --> studies problem and many many more problems... i wish to post lots of pics... but cannot larx. i mean is notcannot is juz tat i lazy... haha Tuesday, August 08, 2006 / 14:21
today we stayed back and played basketballthen after tat we all disscused mrs yeo de thingy ms fong was invited!!! haiz after tat, me+lucinda+tingjun walked home together then under tzy's block, we saw him there and we tok lo then tj let luc and tzy see a msg i was too late then tj said luckily i did not see it and i think it has smth to do with me and lch they dun wan to tell me! i and luc followed tj home till his doorstep. 06-505 haha then after tat i kept on askin luc what the msg is she dun tell me even i reached her doorstep then she locked me outside! i immediately ran off and sat on the stairs, cryin then i realized tat i have none best frend at all all are jerks!!! i will nv ever forgive them I HATE THEM!!!! Monday, August 07, 2006 / 21:30
haha...i was browsing through my previous blog ENTRIES which add up to a total of more than 50 i then realised tat i was right everythin i say are always not the truth. On the post dated friday march 17, 2006, i wrote: i vowed nv to like anyone in 6c4 again after james. but now, you c??? HAHAHA now i like lch... yoz.. i oso realized smth when we were playin captain ball today durin recess when tj or eelin gonna defend the ball from reaching me to catch is either they bumped into each other or the two of them all bumped into me!!! arrgh today after sch me+haiyun+gina+lucinda+jayda+afiqah+sijia played volleyball at first, we used the captain ball derx than after tat we used the no sting ball YEAH! before tat all my hands were in great pain all reddish haha haiz then when we went back to class, is then the pathetic me they used yuanshen's silver marker paint and worte: I LUV LCH all over my hands so hard to get it off! now there is still lots of marks left... haiz' then i got to treat lucinda and gina ice-cream... then luc's ice cream dropped... i was there laughing she too... now my friendship with swewlin is back again coz we got sms or msn then is like we still remember there is once: --> tj dunno how and touched swelwin's hand (coz last time me+swelwin+tj always went home together) then we were qll there laughing like hell --> once, me and swelwin walked home together and saw a boy reading a comic in front of us. as he was lowering his head and too engrossed in the comic stuff, he failed to notice us. swelwin said tat the boy is tj but i said not. so in the end, we were there arguing n the boy suddenly looked up, causing me and swelwin to laugh till gotta stomachache' HE WAS HONGTINGJUN! HAHAHAHAHAHA oops. gtg bye signing off....................................... MISSING CHENHUI... haha haiz... told you.
/ 20:59
Hehex...i m back again see, told you. in my previous post, i stated tat :"i will wash my hands off him" but it dosen't seem right... haha today i very pathetic lehx got to face him abt 1 and 1/2 hr in computer lab coz his s/n is directly opposite me then eelin kept sayin tat i m playin hide and seek and all abt my enries stuffs... argh... worse still, there is a spoilt board on the floor so i accidentally kicked it and he asked: who kicked me? tingjun replied: muz be jenny larx. chenhui bent down and see dunno whateva he explained to tj: no larz, coz there is a board there, she kicked it then i can sensed vibration. i was like like toking to tj: get it? haha... then my com super lack!!!! haiz you cannot chnage fate yesterday i asked swelwin to help me ask chenhui what thing he like the best so i can buy a birthday present 4 him but hu noes, today the moment i stepped into the class pre-supp, swelwin was standing there asking him then i overfroze for a few sec and stared @ swelwin we two exchanged glances then he ask swelwin izzit someone ask her to ask de then i quickly dashed off... hahahahaha ---------------------------------------------------------- haiz now i actually regretted confessing. really coz of sijia lo... sobby........................... haiz I HATE HOLIDAYS!!! coz holidays = no school = CANNOT C HIM! u see, all things are connected! haha.. i really wish to wish upon the stars tat i can c him everyday... BYEE tomolo got the discussion abt mrs yeo birthday and playin basketball still... haha bye signing off Sunday, August 06, 2006 / 21:40
haiz...my poor poor fish... well, nvm... ----------------------- well, i really gonna gave him the cold shoulder since he said that i was affectin him oh well. then lucinda said. even if tat, i m still affecting him i ask her y then she replied: coz i can still feel tat he cares abt u like tat then u noe... then i was half like dunno what on earth she was tokin. so is like, even i gave him the cold shoulder, he will be like: who cares? isn't it? he said i was affectin him so dosen't he meant tat i was a nusiance to him? so if i gave him the cold shoulder he won't have any more troubles, isn't it? then he will be like happy till siao onli i suffer i dun even noe what on eatrh is he thinkin abt we lack communication not like tat time abt james at least we got email, sms, callin each other, meet each other durin tuition but now all the situation is different!!!! so even if tomolo we playin basketball durin pre-supp or recess, i won't fight wif him even if the ppl said i biased i won't care at most i dun play larx! ------------------------------ I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING I HAVE NOTHING LEFT. GET IT???? I DUN EVEN NOE WHO AM I!!!! let alone in this confusing world... i rather wish tat i m dead.... haiz. no one will ever ever understand how i feelin not at all.... haiz.... WHY IS HEAVEN SO UNFAIR TO ME??? TOOK EVERTHING AWAY FROM ME. is not tat i did'nt cherish it i tried to save it... ------------------------------- haiz. i won't continue the story tat lay behind us although i have written halfway since the story had ended, what for if i continue it??? it is juz a piece of RUBBISH. IT ENDED.... or... not??? is not up to me to decide derx... you-cannot-change-fate... haiz / 11:24
REST IN PEACE...*********BLUE********* PASSED AWAY ON 6/8/2006 MORNING... Friday, August 04, 2006 / 20:33
haiz....today when i was on my way home, i saw a girl sittin lonely on a bench, tryin to cut herself with something sharp... so i immediately went forward to stop her. i asked her what happened. she said tat today durin sch time, someone told her tat her crush like another person in another class. and others things abt her crush and the gal so finally, she cannot take it anymore and went to toilet and sob... but after tat, when the crush came from mt lesson, he learnt everythin and told her to give him up and oso said tat he and the gal is impossible.... but she oso heard from the frendz sittin beside her crush tat he said tat 'she is affecting him'.... SHE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!!! her heart was already heartbroken by tat time.... but still, she tried to cover it.. she was restless when the teacher says smth tat is important... and kept staring into space.... but still, she still went to the basketball tournament for today for school sake. who noes, when she reached there, her crush is already there. she thought tat he had tuition? then she was like, who cares? and tried everyway to ignore him.... she said tat when she was in bad mood, she would be very good at sports. in the end, it's true... she kept aiming the goal when they vs nan hua sec ppl... but she said tat at least when she was very engrossed in the game, she would not think other things.... she said with her final sentence: " SINCE HE SAID TAT I AM AFFECTING HIM, I WILL WASH MY HANDS OFF HIM FROM NOW ONWARDS!" but i kept thinkin, even now: will she be able to do tat? well, if i run into her on monday again, i will ask her.... and should she cut herself???? for tat, i dunno. really.... ------------------------------------------------------------------- FINAL SAYING OF THIS POST: THE GAL IN THE STORY--- ME. Thursday, August 03, 2006 / 18:45
i really wonder y....a story did lay behind me and him... so, i am going to write a story... if u read le then think it is *LAME*, suits u... but not gonna publish here... i gonna do it in a bk... kk... enough abt tat le... ------------------------------------------------------------- from last fri till today, thursday, it seems like EVERYDAY AFTER SCHOOL we kept playin basketball!!! hehex... everyday lehx... haha... today chenhui always try to act cool and aim at 3 pointers but cannot.. haha then there was one sec sch hua yi boy kept doin it.. we clapped and clapped... haha then today all of us try to aim 2 pointers first... when it was my turn, i tried for twice first... then lucinda went to call lch, i shivered, anyhow throw and GOAL! muahahahahahahahahaha long time nv post is oso bcoz of the basketball thingy tomolo SHUQUN VS JURONG lehx!!! will die derx... haiz... LEICHENHUI!!!!!!! he dun wan to help.. say he gotta tuiton but we dun think so... then we oso ask c3 boys... we said tat tomolo recess compete captain ball with them, if we won, they muz help... today tj was not a ghost anymore.... :( ------------------------------------------------ today after recess, i was being forced to sit with lch lehx... lucinda says if i really dun, i will really already be drowning till dead le... or i wanna continue the story... haiz he kept wanting to change place with tj but tj dun allow then in front got space so he went and sit... ----------------------------------------------- |
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